Had a productive Monday, got a migraine just as I conquered anxiety and got to my old af tags, now abruptly awake (with sort of the CADENCE of the first episode Silt Verses in my head??) and not sure what to do 🤔

I could:
- get up and try to tag, (might just have to quit; might fully throw off chance of NOT working at night all week)
- listen to the next episode (chance of falling asleep)
- try to go back to sleep (🤷🏻)

all seem reasonable for exactly the reasons they seem unreasonable. If I try to sleep and don’t, why didn’t I tag. If I try to tag and get a headache, will I be more disappointed than if I didn’t? If I fall asleep listening to a podcast have I lost anything unless it gives me nightmares? I don’t know!

Hahaha went with Episode 2 of Silt Verses, ended up thoroughly making myself uncomfortable in two different ways, SHOULDA ANTICIPATED THAT

I feel like wading in (pun intended) to the murder-sacrifice, drowning & body horror podcast and then being distressed by having left off on one or more of the above before sleep is a little “well I didn’t think the leopards were gonna eat MY face”

ah well. I know better now. And I’m sleepy so uh. Let’s see how that goes. Maybe I’ll find something fluffy to read before I pass out.

Haven’t slept but have ...drifted (pun NOT intended)
definitely have thoughts about the foil that is Carpenter and Faulkner and also the ways they misinterpret eachother which I think (hi hello I’m on episode two but) is not just based on the personas they project but attitudes toward their god ...like. Hmm. Too much to ramble about now but just Thoughts.

My main thought right now is whether Carpenter is a reference to an author / figure as well or to the trade

Faulkner is way more obvious, especially with the accent:

Anyway working lunars this is your fault Also it took about half of Faulkner’s first POV for me to be like ‘ah yes passes you the blorbo”

Look, a smol earnest fanatic with a fucked up past who will totally kill a bitch. Must be Beth’s. Prolly has curly hair.

your intuitions are 100% correct on their foil-y nature being persona and god-attitude based

which also has to do with them being on different stages of their lives

and yeah im not shaking the type lmao. lol.

oh good I love when I’m actually picking up on things!
GOOD POINT re: stages of life