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wow, giant mood dive? wtf ...
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possibly subconscious anxiety/guilt -> self sabotage, bc I have a lot of tags that need doing; or possibly just thrown off bc my work website is down and I don’t handle my plans being forcibly changed spectacularly, plus I’ve been weird and glum since my mom got hurt even though she’s out of the hospital and apparently doing (relatively) good ...
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and ok as I say it those are all legit, if not necessarily useful, stressors

there’s just also this weird undercurrent of SAD and I’M WEIRD AND SHOULDN’T INTERACT WITH PEOPLE to it and I don’t know what spawned it
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is this just ‘when stressed enough I will always find a way to feel like an alien’?? I can’t have hit ‘when it feels like everyone hates you, you need sleep’, I’ve slept! No one even said anything!
The only thing people could be annoyed about is the lack of tagging I’m doing because this is killing my motivation which ...
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......which sounds EXACTLY like my brain weasels :///
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MEH. maybe I will read for a little while and try again.
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