I get annoyed being asked to do things that are clearly my role. I just feel so scorned from nearly a year of being overworked here that my initial internal reaction to any request is to hiss
I want to be better. I want to enjoy myself at work, but I just can't seem to do it anymore.
I use to pride myself on doing a good job no matter how I was feeling/what was happening in my personal life/office politics but now I just don't care about doing a good job. I miss caring
As soon as I have breathing room (hopefully this weekend) I do plan on starting to look for a new job, but I don't know. I feel like this funk will stick with me.
Maybe I'm expecting too much from employment. Maybe I was just lucky with that old job that, even though management was a bully, I felt fulfilled coming in and knowing what I was doing all the time.
After 2 jobs in a row where I was coming in and scrambling to understand my tasks and goals, maybe that is just how things usually work.
I don't really expect an answer. Just spilling feelings out to the void in the hopes that saying them "out loud" might help a little. Sometimes I find it can help.
Or maybe I just miss having insane coworker stories because coming home going: omg let me tell you how this person was crazy is certainly more exciting than: this place hasn't given me enough training and I don't really know what I'm doing most of the time, but at least they're nice about it.
I use to pride myself on doing a good job no matter how I was feeling/what was happening in my personal life/office politics but now I just don't care about doing a good job. I miss caring
After 2 jobs in a row where I was coming in and scrambling to understand my tasks and goals, maybe that is just how things usually work.