ahaha yellow no don't do this to yourself ;; he is a cesspit and no one else should feel like this /simultaneously having flashbacks to his creator possessing him and trying to stop Jedao killing him
but at least Yellow will get some very incontrovertible evidence that Jedao DID used to feel everything all the time and it was very terrible, and it is possible to get from there to where he is now
1) slept with someone who had been mind controlled to be in love with him after that guy refused to listen to Jedao's 'no' several times; later that guy blamed jedao and killed himself in front of him, like, 15 minutes before this pull point. jedao did have his first ever puppy love on this guy
2) killed his Evil Master Creator who was the only other person who'd ever, like, not flinched flinched when Jedao entered the room, let alone been superficially nice to him (please ignore all the emotional manipulation and mind control)
3) failed to foresee that freeing his sentience enslaved spaceship from said evil master's control magic would result in it massacring every one of the troops on board that Jedao felt responsible for
4) used a new superweapon in his very first battle at, like, 2 weeks old, even though his ship was asking him not to. ship was also begging him not to follow his orders to destroy a spaceship manufacturing yard full of Alien Slave Babies slated to be new engines
Jedao did in fact try to not destroy the mothyard. was relieved of command. tricked his way out of the brig and back to the bridge, got shot multiple times, discovered he was an inhuman goo monster, used sheer terror to regain control of the fleet and order them not to do so many war crimes, then passed out from his injuries
in conclusion, Jedao would blame himself for literally anything despite having his agency gutted and its corpse puppetteered around as war propaganda for his entire brief life at this point
Excellent, can do. Aaaand since I highly doubt Hakkai will actually give him back his powers (he'll ask
Kira🌵
) they won't be able to form a contract, so I also offer Sebastian to be like "ew, eldritch baby" and hurt him.
ᴀʟᴀɴ ʙᴀᴋᴇᴅ.
yes omg this jedao is extremely shellshocked but also still is kind of like "why was I selected to be the attack dog at the end of the world, i'm literally a dumb freshman who's good at video games and is horny for my roommate??????" so there's absolutely a teen level he'd respond on
and also because he KNOWS Hakkai knows about Dhanneth even though he doesn't remember building up the trust to tell himnever look at himalso just know if Roman sarcastically/angrily orders Jedao to suck his dick the possibility of Jedao just dropping to knees is not zerointeresting