feeling better, but still not too great. dad has sore throat and feeling worse, which makes things worse bc he's such a big baby when he's ill lmao. compounded by the stress of my aunt in the hospital... yeah. a lot is happening atm.
visa application is going, not much i can do on that front but wait. my US boss (so basically our WW acctg dept head) is still trying to work her charms with HR on getting me to stay on as a UK employee reporting directly to her, but she also needs my visa among others to get the process rolling.
otherwise i'm just prepping for the move by some more spring cleaning and inventory of stuff i have at home, and sorting out my finances. can't let my husband spend for everything in the household... despite him saying he can and he will
which brings me to a little gripe at work, bc... my manager and i have been talking about the state of the team and plans for my leaving and moving people around etc and it's so hard to deal with people who don't really pull their weight?
i understand that life happens and there are challenges and things beyond our control but, yeah, it gets frustrating to see one person getting so busy while another who was supposed to be on the same project or process isn't even really doing their job, or just putting in the bare minimum... which adds to person 1 being busy
(no we can't just tell people they're fired here, and even poor performers can't get booted easily... lots of paperwork involved, needing to prove that management has done everything to help them and still nada)
on the rp front, i just... don't have the time and energy right now, except for one or two things i said i'd help with that's tangentially related. creative things are happening, they're just elsewhere, although author work is also a beast in itself and just... idk some days i'm screaming into the void asking myself why i'm bothering
𝓼𝓵𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱 𝓶𝔂 𝓷𝓪𝓶𝓮;
i've learned to muster enough patience for these situations and believe in second chances, but some days i'm just. guys. seriously. at least contribute?? instead i get horrid flashbacks to group schoolwork where everyone's freeloading and i'm doing all the work bc damn right i'm not letting you stop me from getting an A lmao
though some days i wonder if i'm just... setting the bar too high? i'm not expecting things to work out splendidly since there's always a learning curve and the whole "good things take time," but i expect people to at least try their hardest bc that's what i do?? idk
𝓼𝓵𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱 𝓶𝔂 𝓷𝓪𝓶𝓮;
i'm glad someone gets me i just... feel like you at least have to try. if things don't work or fail, then at least you're failing fast and learning and moving on to the next thing. but not even trying is what gets to my nerves hahaha like i'm not expecting you to work 20 hours, that's not what it means to try lmao
good for you! on my end we're not done with all the reports because why are there so many reports even hahaha there's a bunch to our parent company, and then for tax, and some admin things to take care of lmao and now we're getting reminders of "here is our month end schedule" like......................... what
the last time i did this was for my previous team and both ladies won when i did, so here’s to hoping these ladies win too! because they’re certainly the women who pull WAY more than their weight and at least i can help them get recognized before i leave
strangely enough i’ve been getting way more sleep than pre-typhoon days, so there’s that. people at work have actually stopped with most meetings so i’ve been getting a breather... and sometimes i downright just don’t log in and claim my internet wouldn’t let me. (but only if it’s a meeting i can afford to miss, lmao)
update to those wondering: my aunt’s transfusion has been completed and she’s been sent home to continue isolating. but she’ll have to return next week to deal with the lump on her neck that’s suspected to be a tumor. let’s... not talk about hospital bills.
we’re still not out of the water but mom being less stressed = me being less stressed. though now that means our bodies are doing what they do again and succumbing to things like sinuses when we hit this part of our cycle where we’re relieved from stress
today was also long and busy at work but there was some good news for my team at least. and i’m continuing to push management for things and changes that can potentially help them. hopefully there’ll be something i can leave them that’ll make their lives easier since i won’t be there for them anymore.
and tonight i’m supposed to be writing a thing for a thing but my sinuses are cray and my eyes are also itchy and tired, so i’m just gonna have to call it a night.
i did manage to write for HF2 today so i’m pretty pleased with myself in general that i still churned words out despite the typhoon and the aftermath. i’ve written a couple thousand to date at least and some were even like, the day after the typhoon so just have to keep at it even if i must take baby steps
i’ve also befriended some local authors and got connected to someone from a local indie press which is great. that reminds me i need to submit to their mythology call for submissions lmao. and i sold a couple ebooks this month. small wins in the face of everything woot
Here's to getting better!
also... how is it almost month end again why how
that reminds me i need to submit to their mythology call for submissions lmao.and i sold a couple ebooks this month. small wins in the face of everything woot