I have a LOT to cover for the few who might see this. And I TOTALLY need to change my layout, b/c my font is such a light grey I can't even see what I'm typing!
Basically beginning of November, I got hacked. Some might be my fault on slippage, others I still have NOT found the source -- including that I THOUGHT I fixed it after about 2 weeks of work....for it to happen again without me doing anything, other than updating all my passwords. Which means ONE of those sites, during my stress & exhaustion,
So that took another long period of time, so now I'm doing a lot of slow and steady build up of reentering sites, passwords, and doing a few things, then letting my laptop rest to check for "activity".
Surprisingly enough, much as I hate comcast/xfinity, they have a new thing that helps blocks "malicious sites"?
So I'm dealing with a lot of "Barely being able to use laptop" issues. I try with my phone, but my rant for "DO NOT TRUST ZTE PHONES" comes for another day.
This also follows/is mixed in with bad physical and mental health (though honestly, I have been a downward spiral since getting disability rejected, then losing Mynx a week (?) later as she suddenly passed away. It's been over a year, but I'm not improving. But, hey, I don't like death: I fear it.
Though, yes, these things can be the "slow killer", so I kicked my butt to start working on doctors again, and then my youngest sister pulled a caring threat of concern of me being even more so -- among my thoughts of certain friends (I wonder if they know who they are), that has pushed me EVEN FURTHER into trying harder?
I'm also still in a lot of taking tests with no results, and lots of physical pains lead to be the: Stress, depression, anxiety = these problems.
I told my SO I feel like an ouroboros that's eating my own tail trying to find the main part to work from there. It's ALWAYS been that way, but this one feels... different. in a bad way. So I am working harder.
I'll updated further when I can - my wrists/arms hurt too much after long periods of times (or even short!) of certain activities (Might have slight -- I think it's worse than slight, but yeah - tendonitis, so there's that...)
(Doesn't help that a lot of work that may require long reading, or something that could cause eye-strain is a slow thing, b/c my eyes/head tension stuff is at a high and my Doctor thinks it IS stress + tension headache's... so idk.
"Unless it gets worse/more frequent" then there's no other steps to take =\ I don't know. She suggested potentially neurologist and botox in the back of the neck if push comes to shove, but that's "last resort" at the moment... But it does mean that my catching up is SUPER SLOW once I know I CAN catch up
(including reading stories and stuff), because my laptop comes first (else I could experience theft again - or near theft --- or just have NO LAPTOP to work with at all... which would then mean not doing ANYTHING. So I've gotta make sure it's safe, first =\ ))
So that took another long period of time, so now I'm doing a lot of slow and steady build up of reentering sites, passwords, and doing a few things, then letting my laptop rest to check for "activity".
Surprisingly enough, much as I hate comcast/xfinity, they have a new thing that helps blocks "malicious sites"?
SOOO at least suicide will never happen!
I told my SO I feel like an ouroboros that's eating my own tail trying to find the main part to work from there. It's ALWAYS been that way, but this one feels... different. in a bad way. So I am working harder.
I can't say much now, b/c it stresses on my arms/wrists, and I want to go to bed early, but -- next post.