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<rl><health>My head is throbbing so much.Between the sleep and the vision, it's getting worse daily - or so it feels.IDK if my sister will be able to help with all things happening that she's tellin' m'mom I'm guessing but not me b/c Of Reasons, but my head... nothin' new.

🎵🎶A lonely girl mutters "I'm fine",Have words failed her?A failure, a failure.Obsessing over her mistakesMakes everything spin again!🎶🎵Rollin' Girls

🎵🎶These wings, although they came out of pain,are wings towards the lightEven if it’s tiring and hurting,if I can fly away, I’ll fly🎶🎵A Supplementary Story: You Never Walk Alone

🎵🎶Don’t wanna dieBut so much painToo much cryin’So, the dulling bladeOh IWe were only sevenIBut we have you all now🎶🎵We are Bulletproof : the Eternal

Time to sleep.Stay hydrated, take your meds, do self care, check in on loved ones and/or if you're the one needing checking in? - I hope ppl check in on you. May karma treat you as it should. May you have something to smile about.💜🌹🦋🌹💜

I miss when my creativity existed - instead it's all fog or glimpses that vanish like dust in the wind before I can grab even a speck of it.

More application hunting/helping w/ my mom time.See how long my wrists/arms will hold out/up since I iced them...

I've been so stressed and sinking in this hopeless feeling, I've been in an even less interactive-conversation mood... it feels empty and fake trying to properly interact more oft than not. I'm sorry, lovelies. I'm sorry.

I'm too numb and out of it to feel rage. and all, but it's there.Let's check the electric bill. If Aid didn't help, then somehow we need nearly $300 by the 21st.Mako helped last month (the bill was lower), but he's not rich so it's not like he can always help.

Dishes, then sleep. It doesn't look like the electric bill is going to be paid. So my mom'll have to fill out paperwork again which if it DOES go through won't take affect until next month. So. Pray that my brother doesn't take offense and - well, it kinda brings back memories that can lead to a triggered path for me, so. Just. I don't talk about it.

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<rl>Whichever your means are: pray, manifesting, hoping, spellwork/magick, wishing - things I'm not aware of...Please for my family to get some steady income, but right now: help covers our electric bill - or that my brother will do it without guilt tripping/consequence.

It should be a crime for people to be ignored with the assumption it's drugs (and even if it were, should they not get help as well?)I saw a video of a woman in... Australia, maybe? who was bit by a snake, looked like a "hippie" so her signs were ignored as just +

thank you to those have been good and kind to me. acquaintances, friends, like family, past, present, both.be kind to yourself, lovelies.always.

BTVS will always have certain episodes come to mind depending on mood... Out of Mind, Out of Sight is a frequent one.(it's a shame they didn't pursue a lot of season 1 situations further.)<fandom>

As a child, as a teen, as a young adult: i dreamt of spoiling my mom. Spoiling others.And instead, I became this worthless being.who's sitting here sosbbing... and now Fredday came up to me, made a sound, and pawed at me... lmfao...<rl>

+E/B/TIf we have an income of more than $16XX (I forget the exact amount - I wrote down the number, but i don't have it on me atm b/c phone issues), our E/B/T goes down.It's a little over $200 a month. To feed two people, but they only count my mom.<01/10>

I really should stfu and solitude away. Especially with my back to being behind and inability to stfu about the badness which already has pushed others, away. Meanwhile, others are also suffering and I'm useless in all departments.

How it's going:My mom, understanding: Yeah... When it rains it pours...Me: yeah, and for me there's a flood, a tornado down the block and who knows what else.We laughedIt was a good laugh.Unfortunately, the storm is only getting worse./stfu self now

I'm so financially stressed and upset that I feel like curling up and just sobbing somewhere. But I'm fluctuating between numbness and wanting to sob.I'm not okay.

Between vision + trembles of various degrees, not being able to freakin' thread a needle is just breaking me further.

When all else fails it means usb port dying.At 14% charge, I need it to fully charge to back things up and all.But it won't charge, at all.Wonder how much longer I'll have before no phone at all 🙃which would also mean my finchapp progress lost, too.wish me luck, I guess.

I wish I could clone myself to catch up on what I want, need, both, etc.Instead, my battery is never at 100% and I never know what that or my pain level will be when I wake up... so I'm constantly... Upset by all of this.Solitude then sometimes happens. Choice or not.

(money woes, skippable for now lol)

Drank some hot cocoa to relax and warm up (though I LOVE this cold weather, I needed a bit of warmth) -- and I think I didn't add enough to the ratio and/or was too queasy and didn't register b/c now I feel worse T_T;

So I saw my brother's wife posted a video of a halloween decor in front of the house. I went to google it b/c it looked massive.It is. It's like 12' tall?And currently going for $450? IDK when they bought it, b/c I saw a comment a year<1/5>

🎵🎶Queasy, Queasy timeI love my head giving queasy time!Vision needs some work!So I can finally take a look -without the headache timeLeading to: Queasy Time!🎶🎵/macho man-ish tune

Another day of my vision/eyes/head causing too many problems to focus on doing what I need/want to do.I DID get to bake brownies for my mom (bought by my sister) -- well my mom & I, LoL.But I ALSO have a major tummy ache, so.Be well, lovelies!

I stepped outside the clouds parted for me to see the full moon!! So pretty!! beautiful!But then I took my mom's phone to TRY pics, and they're all blurry and clouds came back ;; But it's still there ;;I haven't seen a full moon proper in a while. Please bless me ;;

Sharing from elsewhere, before I go to bed: