8am: good
9am: good
12pm: good
2pm: ANXIETY TIME

mainly because....... I just....idk. I think someone blocked me and I DON'T KNOW WHY AND

IF SOMEONE DOESN'T WANT TO SEE MY PLURK ANYMORE OR HEAR WHAT I HAVE TO SAY THEN THAT IS OK

LIKE....TRYING TO MANTRA THIS INTO MY BRAIN

everyone! has! different! feelings! everyone has different feelings about different things for different reasons

nd i won't be able to be friends with everyone and i'm pretty off my loco rocker anyway so i mean i totally understand but....it still stings

and it shouldn't sting because >:C i preach about this shit all the time. i stand on my soap box and scream "IT IS OK TO NOT LIKE SOMEONE" and then have the heckin' gall to be sad when someone doesn't like me.

brains are a frustrating lot, i tell u what.

i just...idk. i feel bad because we have a TON of mutual friends. most of my friends are friends with her.

and so i don't know who knows about it and I feel bad for not knowing BECAUSE WHAT IF I HAVE STEPPED ON THE TOES OF MY FRIENDS

we were friends, and then i left for a million years, and then we weren't friends-- which i chalked up to cleaning up her friends list and I wasn't mad because I DO THE SAME THING

and then i got defriended again after i was friended and hNhNhN i thought it was weird so i looked at their account and it was just "you have to be friends to see this" and I was like "WE DON'T HAVE MUCH IN COMMON ANYMORE ANYWAY SO THIS IS FINE" and now i am blocked and i just have...questions

>:C but also i won't have questions because i don't want to make it awkward for anyone

especially if there was a general understanding rule or something to keep things cool

DEAR ANXIETY: MY BRAIN IS TIRED FROM OVERTHINKING THIS FOR THE LAST TWENTY MINUTES PLEASE CALM DOWN

ty friends. ily. sorry for bad posts about anxiety.

its thr RSD

its common with anxiety and depression

try not to feel too guilty for feeling it, brains are bad at logic

you can rationalize until the cows come home and in the back of your head you might still be going "but what if?"

eventually it starts to feel a little better and the logic starts to win over

just try not to feel guilty about it being a process

ty sweet friends. i am going to try and be a gooder friend for you guys. but if you ever have any issues with me or are angry or just need to talk...I'm here. punching my anxiety in the heckin' throat. >:C

I respect your efforts to overcome Brain Bullshit, and I support you.