That's why I'm leery of calling it cfs or just myalgic ensepholmytis????? Whatever. because mine is at the fucking root 100% my immune system is out of control
I'm too dead to live. Fucking waking coma. I don't want to sleep but I can't avoid it, and I don't want to wake, but for some reason -- usually water like a gallon n a day isn't enough - I always do
I had a dream about a book about a zombie girl who kept her brain/sanity but everything was pain and she was like "maybe if they study me they can cure it or innoculate others!!"
And she was like "from the outside, it must seem like a cage to keep the monster from attacking others, but the real cage is this body, the rest is to try to appease it"
- Wheel of Time