trying not to Doom spiral at being turned down for the job. I know I have people behind me in my court and the dude who works with them that's with MRS is basically going to offer the nuclear option of THEM paying for my training period, but

it does seem like it's the issue of 'well youve never actually had a job EVEN THOUGH you have experience and skills' which. hhhhh

I'm already having a semi bad day today and of course I get the email after the MRS team has finished their workday too

I'm so tired of the work catch 22, it's just so...it makes zero sense

now I'm upset AND hungry with little motivation to make myself anything to eat. amazing

I'm just so tired of nothing going right for me ever on the first try of me doing goddamn anything