lumpy
talking about needing to larp as not aromantic to pursue my living situation goals and not doing anything is getting boring, and the new coworker I helped train today is notably cooler than average, so next week I'm gonna ask for her number or something
lumpy
if nothing else I need to be gradually farming rejections so that I can practice that type of interaction
lumpy
is it objectifying to view somebody else as social practice? maybe! but I've never met someone I'm into enough to view it any other way. I'm banking on this whole relationship thing being something you grow into that I just haven't discovered yet (or finding someone weird enough that it doesn't matter if I don't feel the "right" way)
lumpy
I'm mildly curious about her and that's enough I can lean into that
lumpy
wait ok so I'm thinking through the logistics of this now, how tf am I supposed to do this at work. I might have to stay til closing? I have to do it correctly (not accidentally do it in such a way where she's pressured to say yes), especially since she has to work with me after either way, cus like it would suck if you thought some dude was going to dislike
lumpy
you if you turned him down, right. but it's not just about intent, like yeah I hate being imposing, but it could still happen by accident, and if someone else did that I would say hey dude it's not an excuse this is a skill issue you have to do better. so I will lock in and try my best to not have a skill issue