Loss of self, desperately seeking a place in the world; obsession with approval leads to poor decisions. Never satisfied, constantly seeking flaws and problems even in moments of happiness. Drowns in their own self-pity, feeling as though the world is out to get them.
PRESENT: XVII - The Star (Reversed): - Find yourself pushing away healers or people trying to care for you, instead craving experiences that reinforce your brokenness, desire to be neglected/ignored
Exploring degradation and shame play, embracing a sense of hopeless surrender or submission. Deep emotional decay, everything feels pointless. Cynical, disillusionment; pushing others away that care about you
Self-sabotage becomes a way to cope; destroy what’s good in your life just to feel something. Unable to finish—emotionally, sexually, physically; caught in a loop of edging.
I feel like this'll be fun to use for like desperation, desire to sub/please for the sexual stuff for PAST and then being really insufferable otherwise.
Fantasy life bleeds into waking life; may struggle to separate real memories from imagined ones. Eroticism tied to fear or shame; arousal spikes during moments of vulnerability, humiliation, or uncertainty. Unreliable memories: can’t tell what really happened, especially in romantic/sexual encounters.
FUTURE: XXI - The World (Reversed): Stagnating; trapped in your head; feel disconnected from your surroundings, like you're stuck in a never-ending loop of unresolved issues and regret.
Projects, relationships, and personal goals left incomplete; no matter how hard you try, everything feels unfinished—constantly striving but never fully reaching success. Obsessive desire to escape reality, using self-destructive behaviors, substances, or isolation.
PAST: XVII - The Star (Reversed): Find yourself pushing away healers or people trying to care for you, instead craving experiences that reinforce your brokenness, desire to be neglected/ignored.
Exploring degradation and shame play, embracing a sense of hopeless surrender or submission. Deep emotional decay, everything feels pointless. Cynical, disillusionment; pushing others away that care about you.
I feel like I've been so MIA due to job hunting the last few months that folks have moved on from wanting CR but I'm going to work on actively trying to get things up and tagged out this week! I'm coming for you folks and I wanna be active and get things done
hmmm i would say either but jace perhaps lines up better with Tim's angel revival need for worship they can either clash or he can be horny for ritual and punishment
sciel.
: ooooh yeah jace would want ritual and to be worshipped too so they can clash on that or if tim wants to lean in and we can do idk orgasm denial until worship happens? and LOL right for fp and tim
"the hierophant (reversed) - Sexual guilt or shame; driven to punish yourself or others - Anti-authority streak — compulsion to challenge beliefs or leaders" that's what he got!
Loss of self, desperately seeking a place in the world; obsession with approval leads to poor decisions. Never satisfied, constantly seeking flaws and problems even in moments of happiness. Drowns in their own self-pity, feeling as though the world is out to get them.Exploring degradation and shame play, embracing a sense of hopeless surrender or submission. Deep emotional decay, everything feels pointless. Cynical, disillusionment; pushing others away that care about youSelf-sabotage becomes a way to cope; destroy what’s good in your life just to feel something. Unable to finish—emotionally, sexually, physically; caught in a loop of edging.Fantasy life bleeds into waking life; may struggle to separate real memories from imagined ones. Eroticism tied to fear or shame; arousal spikes during moments of vulnerability, humiliation, or uncertainty. Unreliable memories: can’t tell what really happened, especially in romantic/sexual encounters.Deep craving to convert others to your “truth,” whether spiritual, sexual, or philosophical. Kink tied to ritual, obedience, and punishment.Projects, relationships, and personal goals left incomplete; no matter how hard you try, everything feels unfinished—constantly striving but never fully reaching success. Obsessive desire to escape reality, using self-destructive behaviors, substances, or isolation.A growing sense of alienation, believing you don’t belong, or that you’ve missed your chance to make something of yourself.Exploring degradation and shame play, embracing a sense of hopeless surrender or submission. Deep emotional decay, everything feels pointless. Cynical, disillusionment; pushing others away that care about you.Withdrawing from sexual/romantic relationships, inability to articulate desires.Commanding authority, wise leadership, offering structure/stability.jemdanny- Sexual guilt or shame; driven to punish yourself or others
- Anti-authority streak — compulsion to challenge beliefs or leaders" that's what he got!