I just did a quick scan as of April 20th, 2025, so. And I'm really just. Brain fogged. Everything else is bill-required (aka money), so. I really appreciate any help, thank you.
Because of no source of income yet, there's a chance of being unhoused over our heads as we decide "electricity + something else being disconnected or pay rent and risk being evicted?"
Electricity and Internet will be doubled + feed in May and potentially D/C'd in May or June.
No money for toilet paper, Fredday's food, any food once our E/B/T runs out (which it has since they cut ours in half), no money for our medications (most of which can't be missed by a day, two max).
I'm trying so hard not to get physically ill over this.
I'm still looking at things online. There were things like Swagbucks fulfilling apps (are reliable, but HEAVY grindy and HEAVY time consuming and causes a lot of pain in my arms, which I WAS going to do, but my phone cannot handle it and is pretty much a txt 75% reliable only)
Mechanic has not returned my mom's message after he said he could repair her vehicle (if it IS just the fuel... thing, I forget the name), so that means there's no travel and most must be delivered and job hunting for my mom more difficult - nvm my online hunts.
Fredday is now going to be late for a vet appt which would give him his re-script for his mandatory asthma meds, and mandatory rabies shot. Because there's no funds for that.
Amazing, sadly, what certain environments + health can screw over financial situations.
I'm tired of HAVING to ask for help. No one should be in a position of HAVING to ask for help.
And no one should be taking advantage of those either asking for help or those willing to help which screws it over for those of us who genuinely need the help.
So there's it all on the line, again, in a single thread in hopes and prayers and manifestations that people will share this and just MAYBE enough people can help.
June is already emotionally tough as it'll be year 2 since my brother passed and I just...
My phone being on its deathbed and my laptop having issues, me trying to figure out IF I can even draw and it won't be ENOUGH commissions (it wasn't back then and with algorithms as they are now, it won't be now), it's made a lot of options HARDER.
TMI? Down to our last sets of clean clothing in many ways. Just. Maybe hand wash a shirt or two, if possible, but we're out of the liquid detergent and only have the pods now, and can't afford the washer/dryer across the street b/c of bills. So. Yeah. We're... not okay.
Emily ✟
: Oh I just. I didn't even think of adding it as I was in such a... IDK how to word it... Just panic of desperation I was scared of putting a bunch of things on there.
As for what I crossposted and updating in all places:
Update! Got enough napkins between Cal & Emily that now I took it off the list! Also some of those acne patches and 1 bag of the potty pads for Fredday! Thank you so so so much!! List updated!
I'm so grateful for any shares, help, donations, items, anything that is towards the help! Most importantly to Fredday and Diamond, or to my mom. That's what matters most. Thank you so much.
☆XINDA☆
: you are welcome. if i could give you everything on your list I would. please take care, and add as much things as you need, it gives people more choices. Add detergent.
Updated list: Laundry detergent for handwashing, a laundry hand washer tool (nvr used one, but we don't get to do laundry properly frequently b/c of quarters, so...), and dish soap (no dishwasher: I am the dishwasher, LoL).
Any $ will first go towards TP ($26), then bills. 💜
Emily ✟
: Thank you so much... since you mentioned it, I did go ahead and add those things. It's overwhelming with what's needed and not trying to come off greedy when I'm just super appreciative and desperate.
I can't do anything until I get paid again, which isn't until next month. My first paycheck went to making up for what we were behind on, unfortunately. But I have this liked for when I get paid again.
Well, my mom's phone bill is due in a few days, they gave us an extension after I just spoke with them, but it just really adds to the frustration. The bill is just below $17 USD and there's only $7 in the bank. So it has nothing to pull from. We're doing our best, but it's so discouraging...
Red Panda Jean
: It's okay, you've done a lot throughout the years as it is, the boost means a lot as it is. And I know/understand how things are with you, too ;;
except, hon, the xindasnocturne gmail doesn't seem to come up or work on paypal (I did add the @, but no go). Are you sure that's the right one? I've got an old account in here with your mom's name, any idea if that's still active? I can send it there, if it is.
I sent you a couple of things that were not on the list, but after the water talk it's all I could think of. You cannot live without water, so I sent you a filter pitcher. If it does NOT work, we can try another brand, or another way, but you have to get regular, drinkable water, to start with. I'll be able to get more/send more after I get paid.
Thanks to Jean covering m'mom's phone bill and there'll be a few bucks left from that, plus the Ko-Fi (after the fee it takes out) that'll be $16 out of $26 left to cover Toilet Paper. The next bit will go towards Fredday's food (I think it's like $7 twice a month? I forget). Then IDK.
But Thank you again so much for any sharing anyone does (so far it's only been shared on Plurk ^^; )I REALLY appreciate it and it's brought tears to my eyes.
I'm in physical pain atm, so it's hurting to type so I'm sorry I'm not saying as much as I would prefer/want to ;;
we can put in the fridge or SOMETHING, but wasn't sure if we'd be able to afford the replacement filters, or if it'd work at all. And, at the time, we were getting full EBT so it didn't dip into that heavily at all. Freakin'... I've got TEARS.
Emily ✟
: And thank you SO MUCH. My mom was so confused "What's in here that's so heavy?" and then I opened it and got all teary eyed and she once again started on the "tell them thank you" on repeat... (I wonder where I get it from...)
And I'm not sure the username of the person who donated to my KoFi, but thank you SO MUCH for the help ;; That'll go towards us getting TP for the next... I think it covers like 5 weeks? At least a month. We'll just have to dip $16 and just. Yeah.
So I'm wrapping up things so I can go to bed, as I had to contact the phone company about her phone b/c there was a mixup and it wasn't sending messages, and m'mom brought another pckg in the house!
I hid my addy part, but it was open as shown in the picture, so I'm not sure who sent it (if there was a note, it was stolen or fell out?) if you sent anything else, I can send the original photos to whoever gifted this so they can reach out to Amazon, but omg thank you so much!
Diamond came running out as if she KNEW what was in it, despite her not having any way of knowing xD Fredday will be so happy since this these and the Churu's are how he takes his asthma inhaler ;;
I think I got those...I'll have to check my email, could have been someone else. I know I got a cat item, bc kitties deserve treats, too, no matter what. but everything is kinda blurry, and maybe someone got the same thing I did.
and awww ;; you need fresh water, all of you. this sounded like best long term solution.
ok, upon looking, yes, that was one of mine. Another should be coming tonight, the pitcher with filters at end of week, and some bottled water May 7th-9th
Red Panda Jean
: Thank you so so much lovely ;; When I walked by them as I was putting it away, they were both staring at me, and I was like, "You two are soooo looooveeedd~!" and they were so big-eyed. ;;
? ;; It was literally in just the plastic with it addressed to Dani [l/n], and I was just first concerned of theft and then confusion, and then when I saw it so much appreciation ;;
Red Panda Jean
: Ahh thank you ;; (I hope they mind the sign this time, I'm so worried of theft >_< We have like this floor mat sized sign that says smth about leaving things on back porch, not front, and yet they keep dropping things off on/near the sign >_<)
Red Panda Jean
: Yesss... the kitties are both VERY grateful and I ALMOST gave them one just b/c but until I have guaranteed income, I couldn't risk "wasting" it early T_T; But they'll get to share half of one tonight when I do Fredday's asthma inhaler thanks to you ;;
Update: Mom contacted E/B/T. They CLAIM they have everything already and are reopening the case?? But from now until the 23rd of May we have $60 for food. Yup. And no guarantee we'll have /anything/ coming in on the 23rd b/c... we just won't know. Until they decide.
Update 2: We are short a min of $290 in HALF the bills for the month. All bills will be doubled up this month and I DON'T remember if they allow for a 3rd month before they disconnect.
And then in June our rent is raised to where it'll be $20 over my mom's senior/retirement SS payments.
Either our internet/electricity will be disconnected at the end of this month or a fee will be attached and disconnected in June if not at least half paid.
I'm still waiting to get through to applications with no luck, and my phone keeps dying/restarting still (My phone bill covers the texts which I need for emergencies and medical contacts).
My brother did send his help, and even with that, we're almost $350 short
I know it's harder to trust that the money I get donated is going to where I say it is if you don't know me. I can only show a bill screenshot and then it gets paid after donation goals reached.
I'm just at a loss of desperate requests at this point...
I can vouch for Xinda for anyone that knows me. I've known Xinda for 20yrs. We even got to meet up a couple of times. Xinda and her mom are good, sweet people who have been struggling for a long, long time. They hate burdening others, so if either is asking for help, things are pretty dire.
Oh, right! I saw on my list! Update! For anyone who wants to get Fredday pee pads (we put them in and out the litter box - he doesn't like the texture of any litter we've used so they're rather important), they're down to $17.58 vs $21.99! If you can help, it'd be appreciated!
Red Panda Jean
: Oh, love. Okay now I'm going to cry. Thank you so so much ;; Yeah my mom and I were talking yesterday and she was just very frustrated at having to ask for help that I had to be the one to break to do it because she just. Doesn't like to weigh others with this...
I know. And I more than understand how hard this is for you, considering.
Curious, is Diamond also using the pads? And it's good to know on the price, sadly, I'm tapped out until I get paid next Monday, so I hope someone can swing them.
Diamond only uses them if I miss out a day of litter cleaning, otherwise she uses her own litter - which we stocked up on last year so we're really good on that for her for some time, thankfully.
I had told m'mom last year at some point "We should stock up while this is a good price just in case..." My "hoarding" for things like that has saved our butts at times.
☆XINDA☆
: Amazon is bad about instructions. I have the same issue with Walmart delivery. I sent you some more Pee Pads and some Delectables. My Lily loves these too.
Emily ✟
: I thought I replied to this but it looks like plurk didn't send it T___T Urgh. Yeah, Walmart is a hit or miss, too -- even tho there's directions T_T
See, I didn't know if they would've liked Delectables, but... it might've been late 2023? M'mom bought some and Diamond and Fredday nearly chewed through the tube to get to it xD
The good: Loook!! So Got another set of these wonderful treats for Fredday (and Diamond shares - or Fredday has to share with her, haha)! M'mom took the pic for me b/c Diamond immediately ran up to it xD
I ALSO woke up to ANOTHER set of Pee Pads for Fredday AND a Brita Filter from Jean/Cat!! Which omg. I'd been debating on one of those for YEARS, but wasn't sure if they were worth the money or if it'd make a difference with our water or not... Omg. THANK YOU.
The other "good" news? So there ended up being an issue w/ my mom's phone - they had TAKEN OFF AUTOPAY when I had talked to them last, before Jean/Cat had sent money to cover it. I DID NOT KNOW THIS.
I decided to check on the acct and it said it was EXPIRING in like. An hour?
I waited a half hour on chat to talk to them, then nothing, then finally something like... IDK the entire process was about an hour or so. The good news? The person was so kind and understanding AND let us know
that instead of $16.48 (after tax) for unlimited txts/calls + 2Gigs of Data... It was now only $10 (+tax) AND that when she offered that we could pay $93 (or smth) for an entire year (saving over $30...) and I mentioned financial stuff isn't kind, she gave my mom's acct a single month
of only $5!!! Which means the rest of Jean/Cat's help was able to go to Fredday having his wet food he needs (ironically he only actually likes the cheapest stuff xD Thankfully). AND that my phone bill will also only be $10 a month (plus tax)
The last bit of good is my sister heard that we were "short", but mom didn't want to admit by ... how much. So my sister sent some money over which covered our only TV provider so that was good!
I'm looking now, and rent HAS. Oh right, my mom's and my mandatory meds ($8? $9? There's still one missing on my end, and IDK the price and IDK about m'mom's. Yay insurance for it being $1-$3 each if covered...)
Also down to... About $20-$30 in E/B/T until the 23rd with no notice yet on if we'll even get ANYTHING for it, yet. No word from the mechanic. And obvs no way to pay him currently anyways.
So onto the bill details that I'm going to update Ko-Fi that I have to put that to show that, there. I don't know what else to do. No word from ANY job information, and no working car, so here we go:
The two bills for May is $270.89 + the State Farm = $329.58 + anything needed in May.
To not have it happen AGAIN in June, then it'd be the full payments of both of those - $659.14 Not including the sewer bill, but including the State Farm, Electricity, plus Internet... So. Yeah.
I wouldn't be surprised if partial sickness is from all of this...
Red Panda Jean
: Am trying it now! My mom hasn't tried it yet, I don't think, but it'll take some getting used to since I noticed the "mineral" thing in bottled water LoL But I definitely don't taste the dirt or chlorine that I usually taste. Hoping that when they do their usual "cleaning" it will still hold up.
Red Panda Jean
: No, I get it, love. I wish I didn't have to ask ANYONE for this sort of help. Or at the very least, hundreds could see this and then just $2 a piece from hundreds... y'know? Ideally we wouldn't need this help at all. It stings and just. Hurts.
Using newspapers for Fredday's litterbox which... as you can imagine isn't great.
help donation boost
Ko-Fi https://ko-fi.com/...
Electricity and Internet will be doubled + feed in May and potentially D/C'd in May or June.
I'm trying so hard not to get physically ill over this.
Amazing, sadly, what certain environments + health can screw over financial situations.
And no one should be taking advantage of those either asking for help or those willing to help which screws it over for those of us who genuinely need the help.
June is already emotionally tough as it'll be year 2 since my brother passed and I just...
Help. Please.
I'm so tired.
I appreciate every share.
Every share has the potential to reach someone who can, and will be able to help.
Update! Got enough napkins between Cal & Emily that now I took it off the list! Also some of those acne patches and 1 bag of the potty pads for Fredday! Thank you so so so much!! List updated!
Any $ will first go towards TP ($26), then bills. 💜
I'm in physical pain atm, so it's hurting to type so I'm sorry I'm not saying as much as I would prefer/want to ;;
But omg. Thank you so much ;; Like, seriously...
And... sweetheart... You didn't have to do that... thank yous o much T_T I'd been considering some sort of thing
...except it was open and the addy was covered.
and awww ;; you need fresh water, all of you. this sounded like best long term solution.
The two that WILL bounce on auto payment is:
- $16.48 (Phone - me - May 7th-ish autopay)
- $58.68 (State Farm - May 10th-ish autopay) (car)
We've still not heard back from car mechanic on my mom's car and now have no $$ for that, because we were out of food so we
needed to use that money to actually be able to eat.
The ones that will be doubled up:
Delmarva & Internet - if we pay half of those, that'll total $271.
Plus the two that'll bounce: $346
We're short from rent last month of $50, so we can't NOT pay again.
And then in June our rent is raised to where it'll be $20 over my mom's senior/retirement SS payments.
Either our internet/electricity will be disconnected at the end of this month or a fee will be attached and disconnected in June if not at least half paid.
I'm still waiting to get through to applications with no luck, and my phone keeps dying/restarting still (My phone bill covers the texts which I need for emergencies and medical contacts).
My brother did send his help, and even with that, we're almost $350 short
not including the meds m'mom is going to have to pay for herself and me (required meds, mind you), if we run out of food, if the car is fixed, etc.
So. Every bit of money donation is also greatly appreciated.
I know it's harder to trust that the money I get donated is going to where I say it is if you don't know me. I can only show a bill screenshot and then it gets paid after donation goals reached.
I'm just at a loss of desperate requests at this point...
Curious, is Diamond also using the pads? And it's good to know on the price, sadly, I'm tapped out until I get paid next Monday, so I hope someone can swing them.
I decided to check on the acct and it said it was EXPIRING in like. An hour?
My mom had to tell our landlord to cash the check immediately else risk it bouncing... due to autopayments that happen this week.
He ONLY accepts physical checks and my mom didn't know she was out. So she had to pay $27 (?) for checks...
I'm looking now, and rent HAS. Oh right, my mom's and my mandatory meds ($8? $9? There's still one missing on my end, and IDK the price and IDK about m'mom's. Yay insurance for it being $1-$3 each if covered...)
Minus the $27?
$18.26
The two auto payments this week:
My phone ($10+tax) and State Farm Car ($58.68).
As you may notice... My phone will be taken, but she'll need ANOTHER extension on insurance then that'll be $5-$7 for all of May.
The two bills for May is $270.89 + the State Farm = $329.58 + anything needed in May.
I wouldn't be surprised if partial sickness is from all of this...
Oof on the bills thing. I can send a bit more to help out next paycheck, but not that much.