paranoia from the surgery cost and not being employed to recoup that cost is both making me reconsider having it at all and having me relapse back into overworking myself

both of which are... very bad and i already had a spike in agonizing pain again the other week

but i'm also just paranoid of dumping all the money i finally accumulated on this thing

but my health has been... really bad lately and i should fix that

take care of you bb. you deserve to be comfy as much as you can, and not live in pain

it’ll probably be expensive yeah but you can do this

hghghg why is everything money so much