[Early Pre-New Year musings]

I ended up letting a lot of things fall through this year. I'm a bit frustrated, honestly, considering they were RP plans I wanted to slam through and give my tagging partners something nice, whether to send off the year with or to come back to whenever they want to reminisce.

On the flipside, it hasn't actually managed to hurt me long term, so maybe I actually grew a stronger spine.

If there's anything I want to say I can do now, though, it's that I finally have a phrase for something I've been doing without thinking for some time now.

"Success amnesia".

Forgetting the things you accomplished sucks.

Worst is I'm not sure if it's one thing or another. Not going to go into specifics since they're deeply personal things, but...

It's probably something I can focus on unraveling as I try to get through next year and the nonsense that's hanging over me atm.

if nothing else... getting back into RPing at a game connected me to people again, and helped me reconnect more firmly. I'm forever thankful to a certain ѕαмѕα for that.

i love you a whole lot, friend