so getting this out of the way oh god our rolls were sooo bad. they were so bad. i tried Once and dicebot punched me in the face and then i went. actually neuvillette should roll i cant be trusted with this. the narrative wants me dead again
so even though she was opposed to giving away their stuff because their luck was already VERY bad she could have been convinced pretty easily............. if he had not turned his gun on her
1. phel absolutely should not have been protecting her she can take care of herself and if her failure to convince dan feng got her shot thats HER problem 2. horrifying to watch. also it made NEUVILLETTE upset which is problematic because she likes him and he doesn't deserve this mess 3. this is all her fucking fault!!! in like four different ways!
fortunately while she is prone to sad girl hours she is also not someone to make it the other person's problem so the chances of her admitting its her fault are pretty slim. but its there waiting in the background!! also
vic and i were joking the other day about the trauma bonding being intense but my god every time something happens it really does ratchet that shit up SO fast
MWM IS A LOT. its also just a lot for val specifically who is an abnormal human girl from a relatively normal human world with supernatural elements at best. not a misery canon
she's a strong human but she's not stronger than the average 5'4" girl who routinely works out she's just an intense freak determinator who doesn't know when to quit when she really Needs to do something and will work herself bloody if she has to. can, has, will
but as a result she's bonding HARD to gluttony (and some others) because shit really is so intense for her and she really hasn't had much time to work it out
she clung pretty hard to phel. she likes ashley a LOT (and they're also from the same area yeaaah solidarity). she respects neuvi so much. shes still unsure on 2shley because she does like her but she's realizing that Something Is Wrong With This Girl and she does not have the ability to deal with that however she has no problem being kind bc
unfortunately she does not hate him. she doesnt even dislike him he's in this weird place of "teammate" and "likes me?? i like him??" and now "this thing is a monster and should be destroyed." which is a biiiit new
as a general rule she's wary of nonhumans at first but she thought she was starting to understand df a little bit but. no he killed phel so now he has lost space heater rights
1. she really likes sett. this is another point in the quick trauma bonding web she was neutral-fond on him at first because he's both nonhuman and aphelios's friend and a nice guy but then she got eaten by a shark and he was. there for her??? ??????????????? wild
2. she wants sett to like her also this is a newer thing 3. she really is not very capable of lying. at least not WELL, so she can't stomach the idea of not telling him what happened. however 4. she cannot/will not frame it in a way of "Aphelios was protecting me" because in her mind this puts too much blame on phel's actions leading to what happened
5. so her only remaining option is like. I Got Aphelios Killed By Being A Dumb Bitch and those optics are really bad but she needs to take responsibility!!
fortunately she's not invested in making herself look good but she has no idea how he'd react to this and is also current affected by various status issues so she's a little more freaked out than she might otherwise be at the idea of someone Leaving Her weeheehee
thank god im the only normal oneremains evergreen and always will2. horrifying to watch. also it made NEUVILLETTE upset which is problematic because she likes him and he doesn't deserve this mess
3. this is all her fucking fault!!! in like four different ways!
3. she really is not very capable of lying. at least not WELL, so she can't stomach the idea of not telling him what happened. however
4. she cannot/will not frame it in a way of "Aphelios was protecting me" because in her mind this puts too much blame on phel's actions leading to what happened
every time he edges towards Empathyit's a slow edge