apparently it's trans awareness week? I pay attention to nothing. be aware of me. I am... a gender. maybe. I'm definitely not a woman.

my gender has like, three settings:
1. government/capitalism: sure whatever call me a woman you don't need or deserve to know my actual identity
2. you are my friend and I trust you! I'm nonbinary call me they!
3. if you motherfuckers at temple don't stop misgendering me I'm gonna identify as a fuckin problem

possibly a plant

oh definitely a plant

'rose golem' or 'rosebush' are my usual descriptions of whatever the gender I might have is

2which is extremely funny to me personally for "what the cards in my wallet day" reasons (hint: it's Rose)

wow i typoed the fuck out of that

the funniest thing about me going by rose is that it took me like over six months after I started using the name to remember that one of my aunts is named rose

in my defense my mom has eight sisters and she isn't close with that one

oh god. eight sisters...

she is one of eleven, nine girls and two boys. I have so many relatives. none of whom I interact with lol

so many....

ot the most of anyone i've known but so many

I have I think it's 23 first cousins on that side? and at least half of them have kids, I have no idea how many first cousins once removed there are, I'm not even sure how many grandkids my aunt kathy has

aunt kathy has five sons and they're all like married adults and I think she has around a dozen grandchildren but I'm genuinely not sure and also I could not name or recognize any of them with a gun to my head

oh also my gender is 'shapeshifter dysphoria'

oh shapeshifter dysphoria is SO real. so valid

there are lots of things I'd like to change but not if it has to be permanent. give me impermanence or give me death.

everytime i see a story where you turn into ur 'dream self' im like. but its permanent?? no thanks then

I have this one OC whose like entire characterization is based around being absolutely allergic to any kind of permanence, they refuse to even take a name because that's too much like a cage

their LI talks too much about the concept of names and they have a panic attack and run off to hide in a bush and chop all their hair off to reassure themself that they can Change Things (bc a more major change will take slightly longer to prepare and they needed something Now)

(they're not a shapeshifter but they're a witch and they can effect slower transformations)

anyway I'm pretty sure I was Going Through Something when I wrote that lol

yeah,,, good concept tho

I have like, the exact opposite approach to my own physical body, I'm terrified of making a change and regretting it and not being able to undo it, and at least I'm used to it being like this

this is why I do not have any tattoos

(I did finally decide more piercings were acceptable though. I have three sets in my ears now and my housemate and I are maybe going to the tattoo parlor for more piercings again soon--I have enough room in my earlobes for one more set before my tichel is in the way and I can't go any higher.)

I'd take turning into my FFXIV characters but mostly because i'd be able to find clothes that fit