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5: List 3 fears; one “surface level” fear, one “repressed” fear, and one “deep dark” fear. 1. Surface level: She's afraid of getting hurt as badly as she was by May's monster again - it was bad and reminded her too much of her actual last moments in Aed.
2. Repressed: If she lets her think about the future of her children for very long it wrecks her. Which is not to say it's that deeply repressed, but she at least tries to hold off until the end of the day when she can do it in peace and quiet.
3. Deep dark: She fears that Jugdral is going to fall into darkness and despotism again, only a little over a century after it managed to free itself only through a literal miracle... EVERYTHING THAT WAS HAPPENING BY THE END OF HER LIFE WAS BAD AND SCARY and it makes her so angry that other Crusader descendants were just diving into selfish plotting
sadly! she's totally right to fear this! cause exactly that thing happens :') but at least it only lasted seventeen years this time and not multiple centuries
1. Surface level: She's afraid of getting hurt as badly as she was by May's monster again - it was bad and reminded her too much of her actual last moments in Aed.