. . . kadang aku tak yakin apakah semesta menyuruhku lebih percaya diri atau sekalian menyerah saja. entah apakah seperti ini hal baik atau buruk, ya.

(I probably have given up more things than I would have liked in life)

But the universe is what you made them to be

eh, I hate it how I could be fairly confident and hard at work at one thing while pretty much jaded with dash of learned helplessness at another. what always happens. life.

Lu helpless di bagian apa? Romansa ya?

more like 'learned helplessness'... which may or may not be desirable result from accumulated experience. I guess 😷