Good morning everyone.

I had a weird dream last night that kinna... hit me for some dumb reason?

I forgot the full context, but there was like a test or something, one that I did poorly on, and when a friend was looking over my answer, they point out some fundamental thing I wrote in the lesson was completely wrong.

And I felt really... upset by that, cause I think I had just written what the teacher wrote and it was wrong? It gave me a sense of helplessness that I broke down in the dream.

I tried saying "Sorry" in the dream, only for the friend and others to go "No you're not" as though they were straight up tired of me, like this is something I always do.

Part of me wonders if this comes from how Sunday went in general. I wasn't... BAD per se. But there were moments like towards the end of D&D where I got... super distracted by something and wasn't as RP-y, and when trying to explain it, it was kinna like 'okay, lets wrap this up first'

but I unno. I just.... been feeling weirdly overbearing lately?

and wondering if I'm being more annoying to my friends than anything.

deciding to wrap was fine, and the VTT lighting issue probably didn't help much

(like, regardless of all else there should have been ambient lighting from the doorway behind you so maybe I should check for 'daylight' settings next time)

It's okay. I was less upset about that, honesttly.

I think another thing is, some of the art I've been making lately is much more risque (if not outright explicit) and I'm trying to find places to post it.

I CAN post to twitter (ugh, now X) but I've been noticing my art account has been attracting folks that are under 18 and it's like "YIKES!" so I figure I make a NSFW alt account

but now I can't even make the damn account cause twitter is a broken hell site that no one can even functionally use