[work] [anxiety] ahaha, the eternal struggle

being tired enough that I know taking any chance to take it easy is good for me vs being that tired makes my anxiety worse, so I feel like I should be Doing Something even if I don't have the energy

work is slow right now

stuff might come in, I know there's stuff offshore is working on that should be coming here

but it hasn't

so I'm waiting around

and I'm trying to take it easy, but my brain is making it hard

and, like, a lot of my brain stuff is because work is not great right now, but I don't want to rush into another shitty job out of a desire to get out of this one

I'm applying to stuff! regularly! I'm just being picky because I'm currently employed and have benefits and I want to work at a place I will enjoy working

even if it takes a while to get there

but my anxiety is doing the anxiety thing and trying to rush me