other than 'I'm sorry I dropped out of Kuroro's like a useless fuck' I don't feel like a huge fuckup about any of the actual runs which is great. that's the bar I aspire to clear when it comes to heart games. it's especially great since arguably I didn't do particularly well in any of them but I'm still relatively satisfied with what I did
SOMETIMES U FEEL LIKE A USELESS POTATO!!!!! but really it is ok that u dropped out, but if u somehow manage to find energy to continue where you left off, we can, im doing this all week.
and so he was honestly fairly liberal about touching things and doing things because he didn't really like. assume everything he did would automatically alter the person from the inside necessarily?
like taking the threads down in Kuroro's heart or cleaning up the mess in Elliot's was 'fixing corruption' and he wouldn't think to guess anything else he did in either of those would have any impact except 'fixing corruption' or 'making corruption worse sorry Elliot'
I was going to say 'for later heart things I guess he will have a better idea of what hearts are and what doing things in them can do' BUT ACTUALLY I'M NOT SURE THAT'S ENTIRELY TRUE
HE COULD GUESS THAT MAYBE NNK'S HEART WAS MALLEABLE BECAUSE 1. IT'S NNK, WHO IS MALLEABLE, 2. THE HEART GAVE HIM AN APPROXIMATE METAPHOR TO 'THIS PLACE IS MALLEABLE' and even then there were limits
he did sort of incidentally approach Elliot's heart as a means of attempting to communicate with him in certain ways, or at least approached in a way of trying to place value on the things that seemed important to value
but he did not approach it with the thinking of like 'what if moving this birdcage from one room to another alters Elliot's personality when he wakes up'
no