[work] oh god

there was work

it was just the other file type

it was in the folder the entire time

I could have avoided the whole thing that happened Wednesday

why

see, this is the other side of my fear

and why I can never completely relax when I think I have nothing to do at work

what if there is stuff, I just managed to miss it?

which I did

I was sitting around for no reason

slacking off

this is seriously my nightmare scenario

because every time I convince myself that something's not my fault, I'm not missing anything, and it turns out I am, in fact, missing something

it reinforces the voice in the back of my head that insists that everything is my fault and I must be missing something