：嗨大家。嗯⋯我回來了。 Hi everyone… Um. Um…I’m back. 我只想快速地⋯談一下，在今天稍後的聯動之前，不會超過一小時的。 I just wanted to have a quick… chat before… today's collab later, in less than an hour. 我不想放任何背景音樂，嗯⋯ I… I didn't want to put any bgm. Um… 老實說，我⋯我十分的緊張和⋯害怕，但我會努力的。 Honestly… I… I'm really nervous and…really afraid… But I will do my best.
：嗯⋯首先⋯我們都要感謝敷敷醬第一個站出來⋯代替我們去談及此事。正如他⋯在直播所說，所有休假都不是有意安排的。我們⋯我們在稍早之前就知道了，但我們都不知道具體日子。 Um… First of course, ah.. we really have to thank fufu-chan for being the first… out of all of us to… to talk about it. Like he said in… in that stream, none of it was planned. We… we knew for a while but we didn't know the exact date.
：所以⋯不要⋯我們多數成員都安排了休假等等，這些都不是有意安排的。 So… don’t… you know, most of us going on vacation and stuff. It wasn't planned. 我想老實說，在我休假的頭幾天⋯唔⋯ I want to be honest, the first few days… of my days off, um…
：在我最近休假的頭幾天，加起來我只睡了⋯幾個小時。 The first couple of days in the vacation recently, collectively, I only slept… like a few hours. 然後⋯我也沒有吃很多。我想我們很多人⋯其實也過得差不多。 And… I didn’t eat that much either. I think most of us actually… were like that.
：在我分享這場休假過得怎樣⋯我們在甚麼時候做了甚麼之前， Before I talk about, you know, how the vacation, when and what we did in everything, 很明顯我無法⋯我無法就這樣分享趣事，然後假裝⋯假裝什麼也沒有發生。 obviously I can’t… just… I can’t just talk about that and ignore… you know, what has gone down.
：唔⋯老實說我甚麼也沒有準備。所以我要花一些時間去找出合適的詞語，因為我⋯我想謹慎一些。 Um… I didn’t really prepare anything to be honest. So it's taking me a while to get some words out because I'm… You know I just want to be… sensitive and careful.
：因為虹EN裡的大家都在感受⋯你懂的，那件事的餘韻，但⋯我們四個正在慢慢調適自己（註1），而我也很感恩大家⋯大家的耐性、善良、和愛意。 Because everyone… in EN is feeling, you know, the… the effect, but… the four of us are… you know, taking things one day at a time. And I really appreciate everyone's… everyone's patience and everyone's kindness, everyone's love.
：我有在看社交媒體、推特等等，雖然我沒有像平時一樣常常與大家互動。 I'm being looking, you know, on social media on Twitter and stuff even though I haven't been… interacting as much as I usually am.
：這感覺很奇特，真的⋯感覺很奇異。然後⋯當你們常常稱我為「Uki媽媽」，我曾經感到很⋯不，我現在也覺得⋯我就是Noctyx的媽媽。 It's weird. It feels… feels really weird. And… You know as much as you guys call me… “Uki mama”, I did feel very much… Well I still do feel very much like… the mama of Noctyx.
：所以⋯我⋯我花了很多時間與所有人⋯我花了很多時間在所有人身上，也盡了我所能去確保⋯大家都好好的，而他們都盡力表現得最好。我也盡了全力去團結大家。 And, so… I … you know, I invested a lot in everyone. I… invested a lot in everyone, and did my best to make sure…you know, everyone was ok and doing the best that they could present. And I did my best to keep everyone together.
：唔⋯嗯⋯就像敷敷醬所說，我們四人會繼續下去，我們四個會一同走下去，所以從今以後也請支持我們。我們⋯會繼續承擔Noctyx的名字。我認為我們有這份責任這樣做，不論是為了彼此，還是為了他。 Um…um… so like fufu-chan said, we are continuing as four. We are continuing as four, so please support us from now on. Um, we… are going to continue to… to… carry the Noctyx name. I think we owe it to each other and also to him.
：嗯⋯我想說一件很⋯重要的事。我有跟士大夫桑確認過我可以公開說這事。 Um… one uh really important thing that I wanted to… say. And I made sure, you know, with staff san that I could, that I’m allowed to say this in public. 嗯⋯我⋯我想大家知道，我們盡力為他爭取了（註2），知道了嗎？ Um…I… I need everyone to know that we fought for him. Okay?
：而如果有人⋯嘗試搬弄是非，如果有人嘗試說三道四，或試圖說一些⋯「他們放任這件事發生的」之類的狗屎言論，我會送你下地獄的。 And if anyone… tries to say otherwise, if anyone tries to say otherwise, or try to say… that we let this happen or some other bullshit like that, I'll fuck you up.
：我們盡力為他爭取了（註2），然後AnyColor也嘗試和他一起⋯找出讓事情可以圓滿解決的方法，並去找出折衷的辦法。（註3）嗯，但⋯還是⋯還是沒辦法。（註4）所以，最後還是促成了這個決定。 We fought for him. And… you know, AnyColor tried to find a way to… work things out with him, and… you know, find a compromise and stuff. Uh… But… it just… it just couldn't happen. So… that is what has led to the decision.
：（一陣沉默）抱歉，我在想⋯還有甚麼⋯我是可以說的。 (A long silence) Sorry I'm trying to think about… what… else I can say. （一陣沉默）但，嗯，我們都⋯盡了我們的全力。 (A long silence) But yeah, we all did… the best that we could.
：（一陣沉默）嗨敷敷醬。（ 聊天室訊息：「你做得很棒，Uki。謝謝你一直以來支持Noctyx。」「慢慢來，沒事的，你想說甚麼就說甚麼，但請知道你不需要為此說些甚麼。」） (A long silence) Hi fufu-chan. (Fulgur in chat: You did an amazing job Uki. Thank you for always supporting Noctyx the way you do. / Take your time. It's okay. Just say whatever you want to but know you don't need to say anything.)
：（一陣沉默&嘆息）嗯⋯隨著我們前進，事情會變得有些不同。但我相信⋯我們會互相支持，一同向前邁進。因為，這將會充滿違和感，但⋯這是我們必須做的事。 (A long silence) (sigh) Um… (a long silence) um…yeah things are going to be a little bit different moving forward. But I hope that, you know, we are able to… support each other and move forward together. Because, it's gonna feel… pretty weird but, uh… it’s just what we've got to do.
：嗯⋯（一陣沉默）我們在螢幕背後為他做了很多。 Um… (A long silence) You know we did a lot for him behind the scenes. 嗯，我個人而言，我不後悔任何事。因為我知道我盡力了。 Um, I personally, you know, I don't regret anything. Because I know that I did the best that I could.
：但你懂的，有時⋯我耳邊會響起一個煩人的聲音，告訴我「我當時可以做更多，我或許可以⋯我或許可以做更多去讓⋯事情不至於脫軌」。但我知道⋯這不是真的，因為我做了我能做的。 But you know, sometimes… I've got that little, annoying earworm that likes to tell me, that I could have done more, and that I could have… and that I could have done more to keep… things together. But I know that's not… true because I did everything that I could.
：所以⋯不論⋯呃⋯不論他在何處、他決定做甚麼，我都祝他一切順遂，我一直以來都希望他一切安好。而我也一直跟他說，我不會跟別人客氣的，我會為他而戰。 So you know, whatever… what… ah… Wherever he is now or whatever he decides to do, you know I only wish the best for him. I've always wished the best for him. And I always told him that I would fight people, and I will fight for him.
：嗯⋯（一陣沉默）抱歉我⋯這⋯誰會想到這比我想像中更艱難呢？ Um…(a long silence) Sorry I… This is… Who would have thought that this is a lot harder than I thought it would be? 唔⋯（一陣沉默）對，我不認為我有更多可以說的了。我覺得敷敷醬在他的直播裡說得十分好。 Um… (a long silence) yeah I don't really think there's… uh, much else to say. I think fufu-chan really said it very well during his stream.
：嗯⋯我想⋯去總結所有事件，因為我不想花太多時間在這裡。總括而言，我會繼續⋯與予Noctyx成員關愛和支時，正如我從一開始就在做的一樣。這是永遠不會變的。 Um… I think… To wrap things up, because I don't want to spend too much time on this, um… to wrap things up, I will continue to… to, um, love and support everyone in Noctyx as I always have since the beginning. That will never change.
：嗯⋯呃⋯然後，我不知道⋯我不知道他有沒有在看，但⋯你唱得很好聽，你一如既往地唱得很棒。 Um… uh… and,I don't know if, I don’t know if he’s watching, but… you sound really good. You sound as good as you always have.
：好了，嗯⋯謝謝你們⋯一直在發一些充滿支持的話語。嗯，我不想在這場直播開啟收益化等，這感覺太差勁了。 Okay, um… Thank you guys for, you know, sending all your support in um, I don’t want to turn on you know like monetization for this stream and stuff. That just seems very like distasteful.
：呃⋯嗯⋯（一陣沉默）在這之後我很想談談我的休假，但⋯我不認為我做得到。我想⋯我想在聯動開始前我需要一些時間。 Uh… Um…(a long silence) I really wanted to talk about my vacation and stuff after this, but… I don't think I can. I think… I think I’m gonna need some time before the collab.
：（一陣沉默）呃⋯我是想說說我的休假，但⋯可能留在之後的直播再說吧。因為，你們懂的，這星期我們有太多事件發生，有很多讓人興奮的事等等，我想⋯和大家一起花大量時間在那些事上，會有助我們療傷的。 (silence) Uh… I do want to talk about my vacation but… maybe in another stream coming up soon. Because you know we got a lot of stuff coming up this week, a lot of exciting things and… I think you know, spending a lot of that time together will help us heal.
：嗯，很抱歉我沒有逐一看人們在聊天室裡發的訊息，老實說我完全忘了我沒關SC。嗯，但謝謝那些投SC的人，還有那些贈送會員等等的人。 Um, I'm sorry that I'm not reading through, you know, the things that people are sending in. To be honest I completely forgot that I left like superchats and stuff on. Um, but thank you to those of you that are sending them in, and for those of you that are gifting memberships and stuff.
：唔，我看到很多人在贈送會員，而我不是故意無視你們的。我很感激你們這樣做，真的十分感謝。但我需要⋯那半小時的精神上的休息，在我參與聯動之前。 Um, I saw a lot of people gifting and I don't mean to ignore you.I really am appreciative and I really thank you a lot. But I’m gonna need, you know, that half hour mental break before I… jump into a collab.
：所以⋯對，有一陣子事情會充滿違和感，過程會很困難，途中可能也會挑起一些不好的情緒。但我相信我們能一起撐過這段時間的，而我們不是孤單的。 So… Yeah. It's going to be weird and difficult and hard and emotional for a while. But, of course I believe that we can all get through together and we're not alone, you know.
：我們都有彼此相伴，Noctyx有彼此，所有粉絲群也是。Stargazers、comfydants、briskadets、takaradachi、還有 yuguys。我們⋯我們都會好起來的。 We all have each other. Noctyx has each other. All of the fandoms have each other too. Stargazers, comfydants, briskadets, takaradachi, and yuguys. We’re… we're going to be okay.
：不管發生了甚麼，只記得這點就好。我們都會好起來的。而當我說「我們」時，我是指我們所有人，不單是Noctyx。 No matter what happens, just remember that. We’re gonna be okay. And when I say “we”, I mean all of us, not just Noctyx.
：所以，對，這⋯這場直播就到此為止。我的天，我居然⋯我居然沒有情緒崩潰。我想⋯我大概已經⋯過去幾星期我已經哭得夠多了，我所流的眼淚多得可以填滿一整個海洋。所以，可能我現在已經把眼淚流光了吧。 So yeah, that’s… that’s all for this stream. Oh my god, I didn’t… I didn't completely lose it. I think you know, I've probably… I've cried enough tears these past couple of weeks… to fill a fucking ocean so, maybe I'm all dried up now.
：嗯，但半小時後我會在瓦羅蘭直播再見大家的。然後，十分謝謝大家的愛與耐性與體諒，對Noctyx的、對虹EN的、還有⋯對彼此的。我們心裡都有一處傷口，但我們會好起來的。 Um, but yeah I'll see you guys in half an hour for the valorant collab. And, thank you all so so much for your love and patience and understanding… to Noctyx, to NijiEN, to… to each other. We are all hurting. But we’re all going to be okay.
：半小時後⋯再見。嗯，我十分愛你們。（沉默）我很愛你們。（沉默）我很愛很愛你們。請千萬不要忘了這點。 I'll see you guys… in half an hour. Um… yeah, I love you guys very much. (silence) I love you guys very much. (silence) I love you guys very much. Please don't ever forget that.
註1：”take things one day at a time”的劍橋字典定義是"to deal with things as they happen, and not to make plans or to worry about the future"（「在事情發生才去處理，不為未來作過多計劃」），意即順其自然，一天一天慢慢來，take it slowly之意。
註2："fight"，劍橋字典的解說是"to use a lot of effort to defeat or achieve something, or to stop something happening"（「花費很多力氣去打敗、或做到某事，或阻止一些事情的發生」），此處應取"stop something happening"之意，"Something"指向Yugo畢業事件。
註3："compromise"的劍橋字典定義是"an agreement in an argument in which the people involved reduce their demands or change their opinion in order to agree"（「在一場辯論中，涉及其中的持份者會降低自己的要求，或改變自己的意見，以達至雙方能夠達成共識」）
註4："it just couldn't happen"，"it"指前面"find a compromise"的事，詳見註3。
一場情感很飽滿的直播，文字記錄及翻譯承載不了那種氛圍，但還是想留一下英文逐字稿和繁中翻譯，尤其給那些還不能補檔的粉絲們
UkiVioleta YugoAsuma Noxtyc NijisanjiEN
Hi everyone… Um. Um…I’m back.
我只想快速地⋯談一下，在今天稍後的聯動之前，不會超過一小時的。
I just wanted to have a quick… chat before… today's collab later, in less than an hour.
我不想放任何背景音樂，嗯⋯
I… I didn't want to put any bgm. Um…
老實說，我⋯我十分的緊張和⋯害怕，但我會努力的。
Honestly… I… I'm really nervous and…really afraid… But I will do my best.
Um… First of course, ah.. we really have to thank fufu-chan for being the first… out of all of us to… to talk about it. Like he said in… in that stream, none of it was planned. We… we knew for a while but we didn't know the exact date.
So… don’t… you know, most of us going on vacation and stuff. It wasn't planned.
我想老實說，在我休假的頭幾天⋯唔⋯
I want to be honest, the first few days… of my days off, um…
The first couple of days in the vacation recently, collectively, I only slept… like a few hours.
然後⋯我也沒有吃很多。我想我們很多人⋯其實也過得差不多。
And… I didn’t eat that much either. I think most of us actually… were like that.
Before I talk about, you know, how the vacation, when and what we did in everything,
很明顯我無法⋯我無法就這樣分享趣事，然後假裝⋯假裝什麼也沒有發生。
obviously I can’t… just… I can’t just talk about that and ignore… you know, what has gone down.
Um… I didn’t really prepare anything to be honest. So it's taking me a while to get some words out because I'm… You know I just want to be… sensitive and careful.
Because everyone… in EN is feeling, you know, the… the effect, but… the four of us are…
you know, taking things one day at a time. And I really appreciate everyone's… everyone's patience and everyone's kindness, everyone's love.
I'm being looking, you know, on social media on Twitter and stuff even though I haven't been… interacting as much as I usually am.
It's weird. It feels… feels really weird. And… You know as much as you guys call me… “Uki mama”, I did feel very much… Well I still do feel very much like… the mama of Noctyx.
And, so… I … you know, I invested a lot in everyone. I… invested a lot in everyone, and did my best to make sure…you know, everyone was ok and doing the best that they could present. And I did my best to keep everyone together.
Um…um… so like fufu-chan said, we are continuing as four. We are continuing as four, so please support us from now on. Um, we… are going to continue to… to… carry the Noctyx name. I think we owe it to each other and also to him.
Um… one uh really important thing that I wanted to… say. And I made sure, you know, with staff san that I could, that I’m allowed to say this in public.
嗯⋯我⋯我想大家知道，我們盡力為他爭取了（註2），知道了嗎？
Um…I… I need everyone to know that we fought for him. Okay?
And if anyone… tries to say otherwise, if anyone tries to say otherwise, or try to say… that we let this happen or some other bullshit like that, I'll fuck you up.
We fought for him. And… you know, AnyColor tried to find a way to… work things out with him, and… you know, find a compromise and stuff. Uh… But… it just… it just couldn't happen. So… that is what has led to the decision.
(A long silence) Sorry I'm trying to think about… what… else I can say.
（一陣沉默）但，嗯，我們都⋯盡了我們的全力。
(A long silence) But yeah, we all did… the best that we could.
(A long silence) Hi fufu-chan. (Fulgur in chat: You did an amazing job Uki. Thank you for always supporting Noctyx the way you do. / Take your time. It's okay. Just say whatever you want to but know you don't need to say anything.)
(A long silence) (sigh) Um… (a long silence) um…yeah things are going to be a little bit different moving forward. But I hope that, you know, we are able to… support each other and move forward together. Because, it's gonna feel… pretty weird but, uh… it’s just what we've got to do.
Um… (A long silence) You know we did a lot for him behind the scenes.
嗯，我個人而言，我不後悔任何事。因為我知道我盡力了。
Um, I personally, you know, I don't regret anything. Because I know that I did the best that I could.
But you know, sometimes… I've got that little, annoying earworm that likes to tell me, that I could have done more, and that I could have… and that I could have done more to keep… things together. But I know that's not… true because I did everything that I could.
So you know, whatever… what… ah… Wherever he is now or whatever he decides to do, you know I only wish the best for him. I've always wished the best for him. And I always told him that I would fight people, and I will fight for him.
Um…(a long silence) Sorry I… This is… Who would have thought that this is a lot harder than I thought it would be?
唔⋯（一陣沉默）對，我不認為我有更多可以說的了。我覺得敷敷醬在他的直播裡說得十分好。
Um… (a long silence) yeah I don't really think there's… uh, much else to say. I think fufu-chan really said it very well during his stream.
Um… I think… To wrap things up, because I don't want to spend too much time on this, um… to wrap things up, I will continue to… to, um, love and support everyone in Noctyx as I always have since the beginning. That will never change.
Um… uh… and,I don't know if, I don’t know if he’s watching, but… you sound really good. You sound as good as you always have.
Okay, um… Thank you guys for, you know, sending all your support in um, I don’t want to turn on you know like monetization for this stream and stuff. That just seems very like distasteful.
Uh… Um…(a long silence) I really wanted to talk about my vacation and stuff after this, but… I don't think I can. I think… I think I’m gonna need some time before the collab.
(silence) Uh… I do want to talk about my vacation but… maybe in another stream coming up soon. Because you know we got a lot of stuff coming up this week, a lot of exciting things and… I think you know, spending a lot of that time together will help us heal.
Um, I'm sorry that I'm not reading through, you know, the things that people are sending in.
To be honest I completely forgot that I left like superchats and stuff on. Um, but thank you to those of you that are sending them in, and for those of you that are gifting memberships and stuff.
Um, I saw a lot of people gifting and I don't mean to ignore you.I really am appreciative and I really thank you a lot. But I’m gonna need, you know, that half hour mental break before I… jump into a collab.
So… Yeah. It's going to be weird and difficult and hard and emotional for a while. But, of course I believe that we can all get through together and we're not alone, you know.
We all have each other. Noctyx has each other. All of the fandoms have each other too. Stargazers, comfydants, briskadets, takaradachi, and yuguys. We’re… we're going to be okay.
No matter what happens, just remember that. We’re gonna be okay. And when I say “we”, I mean all of us, not just Noctyx.
So yeah, that’s… that’s all for this stream. Oh my god, I didn’t… I didn't completely lose it. I think you know, I've probably… I've cried enough tears these past couple of weeks… to fill a fucking ocean so, maybe I'm all dried up now.
Um, but yeah I'll see you guys in half an hour for the valorant collab. And, thank you all so so much for your love and patience and understanding… to Noctyx, to NijiEN, to… to each other. We are all hurting. But we’re all going to be okay.
I'll see you guys… in half an hour. Um… yeah, I love you guys very much. (silence) I love you guys very much. (silence) I love you guys very much. Please don't ever forget that.
Okay, I need to go before… I lose it. See you soon byebye.
註4："it just couldn't happen"，"it"指前面"find a compromise"的事，詳見註3。