[Apollo] mm. had fun tonight. not quite sure what to make of that, being totally honest

i am a very functional person. I Do Things, that's my job. closest thing i have to a hobby is performing analysis, i guess.

mostly joined the stream because even i'll admit that i need more socialization.

i've never experienced "fun" before. (cool robot, etc.) like... actual fun, not just satisfaction at understanding/disassembling

several times during the stream, though, i felt enjoyment. kept expecting to have to tap artemis on the shoulder and tell her she accidentally started piloting again, only to find no, it's me

had a... little bit of a crisis, honestly. she's the one who has fun, i'm mostly dour and joyless. felt a little vertigo and panic at suddenly getting to experience wholehearted enjoyment

it was nice, ig

going to take it in small doses, though. weekly's enough for now.

.......also i cannot get over how i have the exact same bangs as allelujah, jesus fucking christ i'm actually angry about it

would have 100% the same hair if i didn't keep it tied back when i'm at the wheel

ugh.

need to get to an early bed tonight anyhow.

If you care for my opinion, I don't think anyone can perfectly slot themselves into "just do things" without having interests or hobbies or fun, even if you're sharing a body

Hell, 00's main cast is full of dudes who try to be that and completely fail because it turns out that they're people

if you care for my opinion you sohuld find the time to watch all 110 episodes of Legend of Galactic Heroes

Yeah listen to Quinn on this one

it's a bad idea but also it does everything 00 is doing here but ten times more intricate

Yeah, it's hard to set out to just be this idea of what you "should" be, and it's got to be harder in your situation. I hope you're doing all right!

anyway I'm glad we got to hang out

yeah. s'not bad and i recognize it's something i need if i don't want my own breakdown eventually but it's also a completely foreign sensation to me. i laughed out loud once and went "wait what" immediately after which sounds parodic but really was my reaction

also glad i got to hang. nice to see my existence confirmed i guess

also recommendation officially taken into account

sorry for the accidental replurk plurk is
dumb about opening things sometimes
But yeah rest first for now Apollo :<

i mean, you're getting to 'be extant' for the first time ever, it's understandable you'd get overwhelmed by experiencing new shit! i'm glad you're able to find more enrichment for yourself, though.

mm. well. couldn't find logh on official websites. yar harr fiddle de dee, etc.

at least the laserdisc version is... 33 gb

something to do when i'm eating aside from mindlessly scroll through sites i don't personally like ig

yeah it used to be on hidive but i think it's only on physical now/