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i feel like death
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sorry all my plurks are about this pain and lack of sleep but that's been my life this week
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i need to get up and feed myself and gracie but after getting water my back is just insanely painful
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aaaand heat now seems to be making it worse
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which means i need the icepack...
emet-sleep
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okay icepack obtained but i cant even sit...i'm not sure if i should try laying down
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i can't even see anyone about this until maybe tues which fucking sucks
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if lying down us an option now, then maybe i can sleep more
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except this is feeling not great
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fuuuuuuck
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cold is just making it hurt more too
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i think i'm up to a total of 15 hours of sleep in the past, idk 4 or 5 days
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i feel like sleeping earlier was a mistake because i feel infinitely worse than before
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might try the tens device again, even if it only gives me relief while its running
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nope not helping
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ah, yes, good...the pain is subsiding into a dull throb that kinda itches
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i'll take that over piercing pain
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tho i know if i move from this position that'll change
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the itching is annoying but its better than pain i guess
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as long as i dont move it doesn't itch
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shame i'll eventually have to get up
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idk if i should try to sleep or not
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laying down might make the pain flair up again...or i might actually get some sleep
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hhhhhh
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okay that's not happening, within seconds the pain was back
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okay going to attempt a nap on amys bed hopefully i can get a couple more hours
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managed about an hour and a half so i'm up to three for the day
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[gross period stuff] and in the two hours i was lying there the new pad i put on completely filled up, i guess everything has built up and finally come out
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because i started later the same day the pain flared up again but i've barely had any bleeding until today
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normally i bleed really heavy on the second day and that's about it and obvi that second day passed a couple of days ago
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also i guess the backpain has lessened enough that i feel my cramps now, fun
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amy bought this penetrex cream off amazon and i think it's working, won't know for sure immediately, unfortunately
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hopefully it works out so i can finally get some sleep
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and yknow do other things i haven't been able to do like the litterbox and dishes
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i have done the litterbox but i didn't get to it yesterday so it def needs doing today
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also actually be able to make myself some food as rn i can't stand long enough to do more than grab something from the fridge and shuffle back to my room
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i think the lack of sleep is catching up to me, struggling to keep my eyes open
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but i don't want to lay down just yet, wanna make sure this cream is working first
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its shifting back to itchy...
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i'll take that as a plus
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hhhhh left leg felt like it was going to give out (as it does randomly now because my nerves are a wreck in both legs) and so i jerked to correct myself and of course my back is in agony again
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it wasnt this bad when i tried to lay down but once i laid down it only took a min
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hoping the cream kicks in soon so things go numb and i can try to sleep
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aaaaand i managed about an hour
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guess i'll be up 3 or 4 hours then try again for another hour and so on and so fourth
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was really hoping i'd get at least three
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well that was a failed attempt at sleeping
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was okay for a small bit on my left side but then it started aching so moved to right and now im in full blow stabbing butt pain again
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lying here trying to convince my brain there is no pain so that maybe i can get some sleep
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just rememered i have an electric blanket, maybe the heat from that will be enough to calm my pain a bit
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it might just be
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maybe ill get more than an hour of sleep
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it was working then my hip started getting sore so i rolled over and it stopped being a solution
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chair might be here today but there's no way i can put it together myself
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ah i just realized how my knee is bruised
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its from keeping this chair cleaned back, my knees are planted against the underside of my desk
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i managed like three ish hours and i feel worse than ever
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sitting is the actual worst rn
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i would very much like the feeling to come back to my feet
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the weird half sensations is growing very bothersome
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pls heating pad pls be what need rn
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cuz cold certainly isnt helping
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i cant keep my eyes open
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i might attempt to sleep in my bed, i think an hour is about all i can do at a time because those three-ish hours killed my back
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okay well managed roughly another three hours so that's an improvement
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but i'm still so sleepy