I opened netflix and Barbie: The Princess and the Popstar pop up and like I felt like I wanted to watch it again because I am into Barbie's songs and fairytale this movie hit me so hard I do not know but in the last part when Tori is performing instead of Keira at first its all good until I heard this +

+"Here I am being who I want giving what I got never a doubt now " subconciously I caught myself crying and I do not know why I suddenly cry and feel sad luckily my ate is sleeping I do not what happen Am I in a worst case scenario now ? I am not really okay? anong nangyayare sakin and until I felt a pain in my literal heart and started crying more +

Then flashbacks starting to come one by one I started questioning myself what happen to me ? Why am I just like this? Is this really it? is this the limit ? And more question still I continued to cry I cant stop even if I wanted to stop you know what I did ? I hugged myself. I told myself its gonna be alright. +

+Everything will be into where it should be in Gods perfect time. You know what your doing Good so far stay right there keep hanging in there . I know its hard but we will go ahead with it your strong right? you got this . I just inhaled and hugged myself even tigther I tap my back I tap my head

+After that I wipe my tears and tap my chest got that last breath and smile

you're gonna be ok