Iiii should be asleep but I'm jittery and nervous ETA: kind of a venting post

/hug
I know this feeling

I managed to get a little sleep, but my anxiety tells me it will take me eight hours to take out trash and do some dishes before I check out so good morning I suppose?

If I panic, this is my reminder to myself that I put stuff in the bottom compartment of my suitcase

Because I know I will, inevitably, look for something and freak out that it's not there

I'm so tired of doing this

And I'm tired of being too depressed to keep things tidy regularly, so I have to do a big clean up at the end and I hate it

I always say I'm not going to do that again and I always end up doing it, I hate being like this

You're not alone in this. A lot of us do this. Keep focused on the end result: finally being in a place you can settle down in and rest properly and the rest will turn out okay.

Thank you for the support!