[Finances.] Spent the day looking for work that can accommodate my physical disability. Should've spent the time working on disability paperwork because there is Fuck All available in Maine.

I can't handle full time work while I'm rebuilding basic functionality into my daily routine. Part time work is apparently available only for people who aren't physically disabled and can stand on their feet for seven hours and/or lift more than two pounds at a time.

I'll lose insurance if I make more than $400 per pay period. I'll lose my therapist and need to find another that's accepting clients (impossible right now, I've tried them all). Medications out of pocket would be $200 for a month's supply. I'd also lose food stamps.

I thought I could find salvation as a flex driver for Amazon, but they're not hiring in Maine. Instacart is hiring locally, but I can't drive into the city every day and just wait and hope someone will want something.

scrubs face. can't even do remote work because the internet here is the bare fucking minimum and cell service is shit.

Like. If Mom wasn't around to cover every damn thing, I'd be homeless. I've got zero control over anything happening in my life right now. It's terrifying.

The plan is still pretty much work towards disability and wait for my father to die so I can inherit his property, renovate it, and sell for enough to get me the farm land that I need to start selling microgreens and rabbit meat.

Which is such a fucked up exit plan.

Humiliating to ask my mother for money for gas so I can drive myself the two miles to get toilet paper (that she also pays for). Humiliating to open ten different tabs on the local job search site and realizing I'm underqualified for office work.

Wish and wish and wish that things were different. Wish that I'd never taken that drive.

hugs you so much

It's going to work itself out eventually! I've got an extensive support network and at the very least I know friends will offer a couch for me and three well behaved animals.

But it's just... spiritually diminishing, if that makes sense. I feel like a burden when I want to be a provider.

God I think the most fucked part of this is that you lose insurance if you start earning a dollar more...

There's a lot that is messed here 😞

But that stood out to me...

Sorry if I'm out of line here, are there any jobs that you can do wfm that doesn't look for qualifications? I think colour comic pages and doing subtitles/transcription might be options but I don't know what they require

baby gremlin : I would love, love to help edit pages, but I keep worrying that I'll need to put together a portfolio again to have a chance to find work. I've been checking out opportunities tho and looking for the ones that are looking to do trial runs!

I've got a drawing tablet where I can draw on the screen now (thnx dad) and I've never been faster at photoshop. I am lightning.