HMD and SOTRP (cw: grief/parent death talk itp)

I went SUPER HARD with Norman the last couple of months, I recognize this, and I apologize to Ronstadt and Horatio's CR for it, I love you all

I'm also really trying to figure out how to get art productivity and RP balance going, which is ... tricky when part of that productivity involves being online and having the clickable RP things around

and the serotonin lies in the tags

and the connecting and the communication, and art is such a solitary thing

I feel better about creating if I can like, stream or share the process? But I can't always do that with things like web design and book formatting, which is what I really need to lean into

BUT another layer to this is that I had to put all my projects on hold to do something for my Dad's memorial on 7/3 and .... I keep putting off even working on THAT because it's ... hard.

It means it's done, it's real, and he's gone. It's not just that he's states away in Florida and we hardly ever talk, it's - he's gone

And I'm making something to hold his ashes

and that

I'm just

I don't have words. I think I'm just gonna ... leave it at that.