If I keep working as hard as I possibly can to live up to the grand pedestal that you've all placed me on then maybe I can inspire some of you to achieve these kinds of heights as well.
Just a whole reel off things that have happened ever since debut like back to back. I... oh my goodness. I can't tell you how much l appreciate that I really can't.
It's like, I guess there are so many words I could say but I don't know if they really like get the point across any more intensely than just me tripping over my own tongue.
我想我有很多話可以說，但我不知道是否會比我吃螺絲*還更強烈地表達出來。
(＊trip over one's tongue：To have difficulty saying or enunciating something. )
To the people who put that video together. Thank you for reassuring me and for reminding me that…I don't know it's, let me try and think of like how to express this.
What I often feel is that I've always kind of been the way that I am. I've always been making these kinds of jokes. I've always been bad at singing. I've always been well something's I think I did Fly Me To The Moon pretty well.
感覺我一直在做我自己，我永遠在開那類玩笑，我一直都不擅長唱歌，但Fly Me To The Moon我想唱得還不錯。
I've always been this sort of person and I think that I'm struggling to process, I think I always struggle to process the fact that just doing that is enough to warrant this much love and affection from people. 我一直是困擾於如何處理、接受的人，我一直難於接受只做到這樣就能得到大家給予的愛和情感。
So this video I really appreciate it because it's reminding me, I guess that I am doing something right? Maybe that this kind of experience isn't, I don't know.
Every day that I wake up and I see all of this stuff circulating on Twitter, all of the nice comments stuff like this fan projects where the only thing you get out of it is the chance to make me smile. It's so difficult to truly remind myself that that I earned it.
I think I'll forever feel like fucking Charlie Bucket who opened the golden, who opened his golden ticket, but then I think that that's almost defensive to your sensibilities because you wouldn't be so connected to somebody if all he was was lucky.
If there's anything that I can take away from this experience. It's that I want to be able to process and acknowledge why you will support me so much, and to from that, continue to impress you every day.
I love pushing myself. I really do and this karaoke was a part of that. Every time that I do something that feels really difficult and stressful. I'll finish it and think what's next,you know?
So, we had the date stream. And then after the date stream I did another one and then we had ASMR which I didn't know if I was going to do. And then we did the cooking that was so scary man.
The cooking stream with my bouncy drunk ass camera. Apparently, the bounciness of the camera made some people horny which I mean, apparently my scuff tech setup is also doing wonders for my brand which is fantastic. And then this,and then karaoke.
I wonder what's next. I want to keep going. I want to keep pushing. I want to keep going the distance. I don't want this feeling to…I don't ever want this feeling to end.
The feeling that there's a celebration every other week. The feeling that people are always looking out for you. The feeling that people are always looking out for each other because of me.
I'll be completely honest. I have been sort of on and off, but for a large part of the last decade. I was very very deeply mentally unwell. And when you're in that kind of estate, it becomes difficult to realize how much value you actually have.
And I know obviously maybe it's a bit of an overshare to sort of start talking about things that I've been through, but I feel as though I owe you my life.
我知道明顯地有點分享太多我曾經歷過的事，但你們所做的一切我誠心的為此而感激*。
（＊I owe you my life：something you might say to someone if they did you a big favor that you were very grateful for）
I did not know before what I would have done with myself but now you listening have given me purpose. And I have never felt more ready to live ten, fifty, a hundred, two hundred a thousand years more. If only to keep doing everything that makes you all happy.
I want to work so hard. I want to do, I want to work every single day. I want to stream everything, I want to try all of these different things, I want to try so many different stuffs. I want to go here. I want to see different places. I want to try different meals. I want to taste different types of alcohol.
And I hope in some small way that if I keep working as hard as I possibly can to live up to the grand pedestal that you've all placed me on then, maybe I can inspire some of you to achieve these kinds of heights as well.
Thank you for listening. Hopefully that does something to express. I think maybe that was why when we first hit 522 and I was playing Jump King and I was hungry that I didn't really know what to say because what immediately comes to mind is kind of admitting a lot of that sort of stuff you know.
I have not been okay for a really long time, but finally I think I am, and I have you all to thank for it. So if I can do nothing else I want to make sure that all of you are okay as well.Okay? Thank you.
Every time I got to the end of that song. I think when I first decided to do the Audition song as my final song. I cried a lot when I sang it for the first time, like I sort of sat there and I... that final line that really like does me in, you know what I mean?
I don't know why, I didn't do it with the pressure of being in front of so many people but it's, I don't know, I think it's just the way it's performed.
I think and perhaps the reason it feels so sort of like special to me as well. I think one of the reasons why that song is so special, that line “She said she would do it again” and there are oftentimes when I think about everything that I've done and everything that I've been through over the past few hundred years.
The main one being, I must be honest with you when I say that where it's sometimes, it's hard not to blame myself for everything that happened 400 years ago. You know what I mean?
It's hard not to blame myself for what happened to those people because if that clan did not exist then they would not have been sitting ducks who tried to fight for me and then all died in doing so.
I know it's not technically my fault. I mean if they hadn't been all gathered up then they most likely would have gone other ways and I would have moved on without ever having known such wonderful people.
You know that wouldn't have been those feasts,celebrations and parties and everything that we used to get up to there. Wouldn't have been any of that, it would have just been a whole load of distant deaths over a long period. Well it doesn't make it much better to know that. Well I Itried.
And I think that line “She said she would do it again ”I think is something that, because without having had that experience without having been burned so harshly by that experience.I don't think I would have had the strength to be here today.
我認為那句“She said she would do it again ”若不是有過被殘酷燒毀的切膚之痛，我不認為我今天會有力量站在這。
Leading a clan, a thousand strong or rather a thousand times this the strength of the original. Because of that experience and because of all of that loss, we've been through so much together, and it might not have happened without them.
If I keep working as hard as I possibly can to live up to the grand pedestal that you've all placed me on then maybe I can inspire some of you to achieve these kinds of heights as well.
/中英逐字稿下收
這（粉絲影片）像個完整的卷軸，這些自出道以來接連發生的事情。我的天，我無法告訴你們我有多感謝，我真的無法⋯⋯我不知道。
我想我有很多話可以說，但我不知道是否會比我吃螺絲*還更強烈地表達出來。
(＊trip over one's tongue：To have difficulty saying or enunciating something. )
給製作影片的人，謝謝你們讓我感到寬慰並提醒我⋯⋯讓我試著想看看怎麼表達。
感覺我一直在做我自己，我永遠在開那類玩笑，我一直都不擅長唱歌，但Fly Me To The Moon我想唱得還不錯。
我一直是困擾於如何處理、接受的人，我一直難於接受只做到這樣就能得到大家給予的愛和情感。
所以我很感激這支影片提醒我，我正在做對的事情？也許這種體會⋯⋯我不知道。
每一天當我醒來看見在Twitter上流傳所有好的留言、粉絲企劃，唯一能獲得的只是有機會讓我笑一笑。要我真正告訴自己值得這一切真的很難。
我可能會一直認為自己是Charlie Bucket(查理與巧克力工廠的主角)得到了他的金彩券，但這可能會冒犯各位的感情，因為你們不會對僅是有運氣的人投入這麼深的情感。
如果我能從中學到什麼，我想能夠了解、認可為何你們是如此的支持我，進而的，繼續在每一天都深深打動你們。
我喜歡督促自己，我真的喜歡，而歌回正是一部分。每一次當我感到壓力和困難，我會完成它然後想接下來呢？
所以我們有那場約會直播，在那之後又有一場，接著是我不確定會做的ASMR，還有下廚，那真的很嚇人。
用我那個像喝醉亂彈的相機進行烹飪直播，似乎相機的彈性讓有些人興奮，顯然地那破爛的設備也帶給我奇蹟，實在是太棒了。接著，這場歌回。
我想知道接下來呢？我想要繼續，我想要繼續努力，我想要堅持到底。我不想讓這種感覺⋯⋯我從未想過讓這感覺消失。
這種每隔一週就有的慶祝；這種人們總是在乎你；這種大家因為我而互相關照。
因為你們付出了這麼多讓我在短時間內走了這麼遠，為此我想要將自己完全奉獻給你們。
老實說，在過去幾十年來很長一段時間，我曾經間歇的，精神上非常嚴重的不健康。當你處在那種狀態，是非常難去認知到自己所擁有的價值。
我知道明顯地有點分享太多我曾經歷過的事，但你們所做的一切我誠心的為此而感激*。
（＊I owe you my life：something you might say to someone if they did you a big favor that you were very grateful for）
我先前不知道我會達成什麼，直到你們給予我目標。我前所未有的感覺準備好繼續多活十年、五十年、一百、兩百甚至一千年，只要繼續做會讓你們開心的事。
我想要努力，我想要每天工作，直播各種事物。我想到處看看不同的地方、品嚐各種食物各種酒類。
我有好多事想做，因為你們給我這麼多時間、耐心與空間讓我成為自己一直想要的樣子。
我希望以微小的方式，如果我持續不懈的努力，將能不辜負你們對我的仰慕*，而我也能激勵你們之中某些人，去達到一樣的高度。
(＊put sb on a pedestal: to believe that someone is perfect)
謝謝你們的聆聽，希望有傳達到。這就是為何我在玩跳王且很餓時達成522不知道要說什麼，因為當下想到的是去承認那些事，你懂的。
我曾經很長一段時間過得不太好，但最終我想我好多了，而這都要感謝你們。所以若我只能做到這件事，我想確保你們也好好的。好嗎？謝謝。
每當我唱到那首歌的結尾⋯⋯當我最初決定Audition是我的壓軸曲，我第一次唱的時候哭得很傷心，我就是坐在那⋯⋯最後那句歌詞真的擊倒我，你們懂我的意思嗎？
不是來自在很多人面前的壓力，我不知道，但我想這就是它所展現的樣子。
那整句She said she she'd do it again，最後那句是如此的令人喘不過氣與焦慮，我不太清楚。
重要的是，我必須對你們誠實，有時很難不去為四百年前發生的事而責怪自己，你們懂嗎？
很難不去因那些人所遭遇的事而譴責自己，因為要是氏族不曾存在，他們就不會為了捍衛我，被當成活靶而戰死。
我知道嚴格來說不是我的錯，我想要說的是，要是他們沒有被集合在一起最終也會以另一種方式離去，而我在前行的路上也遇不到這麼棒的一群人。
將不會有那些盛宴、慶典還有派對，我們一起經歷過的將不會存在，只剩長時間承受久遠的死亡。好吧，知道這些沒有變得比較好，我盡力了。
我認為那句“She said she would do it again ”若不是有過被殘酷燒毀的切膚之痛，我不認為我今天會有力量站在這。
帶領氏族，比原本強壯一千倍甚至更甚。因為過去的遭遇以及失去過一切，我們一起經歷這麼多，沒有他們這些可能不會發生。
我不知道自己是否有力量再經歷一次，但你們想想，我們現在不正是再次放手一搏嗎。
我很慶幸這次有機會能去修正它。
謝謝你們。
Lalaland我看過一遍又一遍，將歌詞和rp 聯想在一起時根本無法好好坐著聽（在房間繞圈圈
當下有猜到他特意選這首當壓軸的原因。
謝謝他特意分享了這首歌背後的故事給我們聽。
懷抱夢想的傻瓜，傷痕累累，犯錯過失敗過，但如果能再有一次機會，仍會奮不顧身地再試一次。
大概是這樣我自己的感想
再次恭喜milord 達成了最初立下的目標
看他這樣真的很榮幸能一起見證奇蹟，也希望以後會有留檔歌回（雖然他可能不想再來一次XDD
最後的選曲真的好棒，背景跟歌詞連結在一起我真的是齁
留檔歌回的話他的日文（