anyway ty fam! tentatively (??) a little better it feels like, I still hibernated but I don’t feel like a stepped on corn chip so time to be productive for as long as it lasts
me, hitting a point of pent up quarantine resentment: I hate my room and I don’t want to be in it also me: depression lays in room without moving for all of today
I’ll probably feel happier if I clean it and try to cozy it up with lights or something but I think without warm weather or a change in scenery I’m just hitting that winter stride of we’ve essentially been in house prison for almost 2 years dead stares into the flooring etc in the darkness
anyway just woke up with a temp, a stomach ache and sticky eyes at 5:30am so I might call sleep a wash and try being productive early instead of trying to rest through feeling like bent cardboard
okay my stomach is once again staging a rebellion and I'm braindead so I'm gonna lie down for half an hour and then come back to slam and jam and maybe boomerang a bit if anyone is down for it
(wakes up sets super important reminder here to take iron tomorrow since I’ve been feeling super fatigued and can’t pinpoint whether it’s just cold recover or my body trying to eat itself again)
made startling new cat petting discovery: because Tana has old lady bones now but loves hard pet, you can hook your hand under her tummy to pseudo hold her up and then give her tough pets with the other hand along her back and she thrives since it’s not putting pressure on her bod
because here’s the thing the whole place was open for the party but technically closed, so it was entirely empty and we were left to just wander at will
I think it’s going to Netflix really soon so if you get the chance and want to watch a weighty, semi-suspenseful (at time) film about toxicity, I’d recommend giving it a shot
also me: depression lays in room without moving for all of today
me after the first ep: ok but hold on tho
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