oh no
our hazel
its broken

/concern

/much concern

darling <3 <3 you okay?

???

Please let us know if you need anything, dude

If you want to talk about anything at all - politics, family, the remake of Dune - I'm here. 💜

/tries to put the gears back in place

I had.... a massive depression attack. And very little time to try and button it up before the show.

One more layer got added to the lasagna of bullshit and I just... fell apart. I am still just sort of jerry-rigged together, a hot mess stuffed into a sweater vest running on 3 brownies and a cup of coffee... but the show is going on

I'm so sorry. The world owes you one hell of a break

I know what it's like trying to keep it together for other people - your family, your job or customers, your friends - it is so hard. It takes a special kind of dissociation to put it all in a box and cram it under the bed to deal with later.

You can do this. /hug Just until you get home to let all the staples and duct tape fall off.

I'm so sorry. gentle hugs

Welp I just barely made it. Thought I saw my parents in the audience at intermission and had a panic attack - my new name & pronouns are in the program and they don't know, but they drove up because of my grandfather...

It was NOT them, but it unsettled me so hard that I was on edge the whole 2nd act and fucked up the very last sound cue in my haste to just Be Done

The whole cast assured me no one noticed and they covered it up damn well, but the head of the whole damn Playhouse was there and noticed, which made the imposter syndrome hit super hard

And now I'm waiting for Lore to get home so we can move everything for the heating repair folks tomorrow

I'm so fucking sorry bb. You've had so much happen in a bad way recently, Lore too. so it's just a lot and stress reactions are to be expected.

BIG HUGS!!!

oh darling <3 be proud you managed to get through it and that it's done. Take some time to relax and just settle the best you can until you have to do something else. We're here and I"m so sorry things are so ridiculously stressful for you right now. I hope they get easier. All my love <3

everyone has said everything I'd say, so I'm just gonna be here in support and love for you

You made it! And that is important.