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[CW: racism/mmos/Boop Dessert]: Okay. This is very finnicky. But GOOD LORD PEOPLE ARE RACIST AF.
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Okay, context: I play on the South East Asia server of Black Desert Online.
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Players are primarily comprised of people from countries like Singapore, Malaysia, the Philippines, Indonesia, Vietnam, and sometimes Thailand.
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There is a beauty album feature that I think a lot of mmos have where people can show off their character design and others can download it for themselves and edit as they please to take someone else's creation and make it their own.
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Classes in this game are gender locked and while customizing is intensely detailed, it's hard to stray TOO far from the given defaults. Like, you have to spend time to make a unique character really look unique.
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Fff I'm shaking I'm so mad. Hold on a sec. gotta calm before I type more
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Okay so of the available classes, 9 are male, 13 are female
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^ I love that aspect of the game lol
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However, let's go into default "race"
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I say race in quotes because it's difficult for a lot of reasons. One, video game. There are elves, giants, shai that are less-than-hairy-hobbits, and a lot of other demibeast types
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Godddd how do I explain this.
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All right so let's go down through "race" and you'll maybe see what I mean before we talk about race in our own social irl sense
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Males: 1 giant, 1 elf, 7 humans | Females: 2 elves, 1 shai, 10 humans
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^ That's what I meant by "race"
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Here's another breakdown for race:
Males: 1 brown-skinned default, 2 Asian defaults, 6 white defaults
Females: 4 Asian defaults, 9 white defaults
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Do we see a problem with these numbers
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There is a new female class putting female classes to 14 and 11 humans, however the race is disputed between white and Hispanic
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All right, that's a lot of background
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So when you look at the beauty album everyone is very very pale and very very white. Ghost white
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If you see a dark-skinned character they are under the "ugly" category and are purposefully terrible looking and
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That's angering on its own
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So I made a character months and months ago and the default for this class is Asian. When doing the character designs, I usually pull from pinterest for a base to work off of because I do very much like spending time on character creation.
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I was reading up on the news at the same time and Naomi Osaka had just won against ... Serena Williams I think? Anyway, Naomi Osaka is really pretty. I ended up basing this character off of her
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Also the face wasn't too far off from the default so it wasn't hard.
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I've edited the character some since initially making her, but the skin tone hasn't changed. It's a darker-skinned character
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And she's so cute and pretty and I love running around with this avatar
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Okay, this is a lot of background
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Today I was being followed around in a town by another player. Literally followed to where they'd stand on me and despite moving around a lot they would follow
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I should have screenshotted the conversation, but I remember it vividly enough
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I said hello and their response was "hello. I'm streaming. And my friends were asking me
why is that [character] so ugly?"
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FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
papermint tiger
Hoo boy
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"I think you were going for Indian character?"
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FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCKkkkkkkkkkkkkk
papermint tiger
I hate this ( :
dirtsmell
'to make racist idiots like yourself out themselves'
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^that
papermint tiger
Why are people awful
𝔬𝔥 𝔤𝔯𝔢𝓎 𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔡𝔢𝔫
wooooow the fuck
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https://images.plurk.com/7tWbqGgFKDGrBN92ui4QkO.png This is the character now, by the way
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I can't find the initial appearance save but
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SHE CUTE FUCK YOU
dirtsmell
omg, she's super cute!
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I should have called them racist right then and there. What I did say was "Dark skinned characters are under represented and not respected. I made one that was pretty to prove you all wrong".
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And that's the best I could do through how angry I was
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I really should have just said Your friends are racist. I even typed it out. But decided against it.
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This isn't the first comment I've gotten
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But it's the most racist and most negative
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My character has been called "black [class name]" among other variations of the same
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Because it's GENUINELY that rare, that people are shocked when this character renders into their view and just
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FffffffFFFFFFUCUCUCUCKCkckc
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Sorry, I am still very angry
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Guys, I'm very very white. I'm so white, a woman once grabbed my arm while I was in Japan and just repeated "white" at me, Unkie knows this story well. I think she was standing next to me when it happened
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I have questioned whether playing or 'representing' a darker skinned character was even appropriate for someone like me
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I'm not going to change my character's appearance over this though. But I probably need to figure out a better way to react to this because it's gonna keep happening
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Anyway. HALF FFFFF but also HALF what do I do
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That truly sucks
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I also play darker skinned characters in games despite being white, i blame Storm of the x-men being a big part of my formative years
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Thankfully we don't seem to have issues quite as bad as this in my game of choice
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I think......... it's a server issue. I'm not saying BDO in NA or EU servers are roses and rainbows, but I know that at least in China and Taiwan, darker skin tones are seen as dirty and people admire white or lighter skin.
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This is such a heavily embedded cultural issue. Like. A Chinese coworker of mine who is my age and is "darker" by Chinese opinion, says she can't marry because her skin makes her unattractive
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Ah...very good point, i forgot about that
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That is. Idk. Kinda sad i guess
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And i repeat. Why are people awful
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She's drop dead gorgeous, I wanna say. But she has a lot of self-loathing over this and it really hurts to see
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I'm glad I'm not the only one angered by this
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I just didn't react as well as I should have and I want to be better at reacting and actually idk, I'm a teacher, I want to educate people, I want them to be better people and not just resent I called them out
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So how do I do that
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I am afraid i don't know. People who have set ideas aren't always the most receptive to learning things no matter how well you frame them
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Sometimes the best you can do is explain that you like this look, or what you did say, and just hope it reaches them
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And if it does not, that is a shame
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But nothing you can change, sadly
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I hope someone has a better answer than i do
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I do appreciate the attempt and suggestion, but idk. I feel like there's something I'm missing
unkie 🌚
that's so fucked up
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colorism is so bad in asia, but asians are considered poc by westerners so i feel like it gets glossed over
unkie 🌚
saying "thats racist as fuck" is probably the best thing you can do tho
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Yeah, glossed over is a good way to put it
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I don't think they realize they can be racist. It might be something I ask my guild about because I'm comfortable enough with some members that we could have such discussions
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But fuck, honestly. You are both probably right and just calling out is the best response
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calling them out* sorry, switched to mobile
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What the fuuuuuckkkk
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I logged in today to find that the streamer sent a friend request
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I just I what. What the actual fuck is wrong with people lol why would I friend you after you prove that you or at least your friends are racist shitheads
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Friending in this game shows when a person is online, and allows for a 1:1 chat box. Not much more than that. But. What.
unkie 🌚
uhhh sounds like a prime way to figure out when you're online and send you nasty messages directly to you?
unkie 🌚
better hit that block button instead!!!
unkie 🌚
but you know the worst part is that if they find out you're a white american girl they'll be like oh.... youre so pretty... (:
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EUHGHGHGEUHGUh ya
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I did decline the friend request
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I did not block them, because it only affects chat on my end
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They can still talk shit in general for all to see, but only I won't see it. Everyone else will
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Ignorance is bliss, but I'd rather know when they talk shit so I can counter it
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One way you can always make them look very foolish is to go "I don't get it, , what do you mean?" and back them into having to explain their 'humour'. its a fast way to have them backpedal into showing off their racism. and frankly, if they're toxic in public channels, don't waste time debating them - report it.
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That's a good point and a good tactic.
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I did request a chat ban for them, which means someone has to look at the chat log and decide the severity. It's the best I could figure out from not having a screenshot
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But it's often not severe at all. They can permanently ban someone from chat with it, but it's very rarely done
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