[Vent]

currently having the extremely weird experience of one of the people who hosted me in seattle for a week suddenly blocking me on all social media and not telling me why

it's extremely weird because we left on a good note?

i can think of nothing that would've pissed them off and if it was that we didn't clean up after ourselves enough the other person in that apartment would've been on our ass about it too

it might just be me because they've been going through it lately and some talks we've had got a little, like, raw, and i myself might be, like, mildly triggering for them

which i can deal with it's fine

but also i would appreciate it if they'd just told me???

like at least they're not causing a stink about it afaict since other people have been nice to me and rumors spread like wildfire in this group so, like

i just want to know? what caused this?

idk now i'm just paranoid about everyone on shrike club actually hating me now for reasons i literally can't know despite there being no indication for it being so

i admit part of that is also because, like, people in the same house vent about each other on occasion on their private accounts while the other people follow... those private accounts.. which is just a recipe for drama but there's, like, a code of never bringing any of that shit up

which, uh

yeah that's mildly dysfunctional

one of the few downsides of this group

oh now that's fucking fantastic

apparently one of the people on shrike club is either narcing to the person we unilaterally hate to the point of almost never speaking their name because they're obsessive about looking up at what we're talking about here or they're actually fucking hacking to look at our trills either way

it's making me feel even more paranoid