90% likely it's because i got a fresh bucketload of stress from mum yesterday and it promptly leaked into literally everything and i haven't eaten properly since friday, but i sure have rsd anyway
but it def has interplay with autism brain too because when autism brain is trying to process some extreme emotional spike it starts getting weird(er) about processing other things like words
this is hilariously good timing for you to say this because i got to That Part with Zenos in ffxiv the other day and i literally got so emotionally overwhelmed (bc against my better judgement I Love Him) that i lost the ability to speak for like
me: brain, this is ridiculous, this is a fictional character who is a HORRIBLE PERSON and you are this emotional about his everything my shit brain: yes and also now the words don't go bc you have a sad me: FUCK.
LISTEN i had started to slow down but then squeenix was like "hello would you like a nice murderman who considers you his only friend and talks to you in borderline sexual ways" and i said "yes i would very much like this" and i played............lots
honestly while zenos is not one of my favs in ffxiv i literally cannot judge because the main way i managed to calm down after my rsd episode yesterday enough to at least attempt to raid in the evening again was yelling into the group chat about dangan ronpa for an hour
you don't want to go into them expecting more than anime trash and they suffer the persona problem in particular of wanting to have their murdercake and eat it too but they are legitimately fun games
dr1 i didn't care for the cast as much but has the advantage of the entire canon not having disappeared up its own ass yet so it's quite self-contained, sdr2 is my personal fav (delete komaeda) but is very much a plot sequel so you prob want to at least know the dr1 cast first, skip the shooter game
id like zenos more if he were used better throughout sb but also youre valid for just being horny and not trying to pretend that he's actually totally innocent because that's an actual take in this fandom sometimes and i'm like
(wheezing creaking voice on my deathbed) my fc runs events.... geared towards helping newbies learn what ex and savage are like....... we run 2 sessions......... every saturday.......... we are all millennials with chronic depression.......... and the late night session....... could always use attendees.............
I hope you can get something good to eat too
Hella Mood.
when autism brain is trying to process some extreme emotional spike it starts getting weird(er) about processing other things like wordsmy shit brain: yes and also now the words don't go bc you have a sad
me: FUCK.
we are all millennials with chronic depressionthat's a mood