[work plurk for the new week]

i'm so sleepy i went to sleep after i finished my second class

i want to trust that i got more things to do but i can't cause it's hard for me to wrap my mind around my teacher actually accepting my abilities but the kids have fun with the letter games so that's great

our attendance agent sending an email about how the attendance has errors and i'm like aren't you the attendance agent? didn't you come into my room a dozen of times to nitpick me on anything? so i have no remorse

now she has to do her job and she still won't take responsibility so i have no remorse at all

is the pettiness real? very real

our attendance agent has a beef with my mom so since i've been there she's been trying to bully me even this year she came into our classroom to go "OH YOU'RE NOT A TEACHER??? I THOUGHT YOU WERE NOW" and spread around that I had gave up so no I don't care that she's floundering

other than that i just wish i could wake up i'm so sleepy when we do classes now

so my principal waits until the work day is finished to send us an email about having an emergency meeting tomorrow and that's it that's the email that we have an emergency meeting and we have to meet with her on teams at 8:30 in the morning. Why is she like this?

Why can't she send an email at a reasonable time? Not at 7:30 and I had to get to a text from my coworker about it cause I didn't know cause I close my work email at 5 why is she like this? I guess she's gonna tell us that one of us is gonna lose our job

she told us this before we left on Christmas break so I guess they're serious but I do have my certification so I'm not worried

if anything my AP will probably move me around the school

so emergency meeting was calling more parents this time for kindergarten so the teachers have been calling and sending updates to me and the secretary I go downstairs to get some food and come back to 7 missed teams calls from my principals, three voicemails, two emails and two missed calls on my cell phone all from my principal guess why

cause she called the parents asking if they heard from me and they don't know who i am cause I don't work in the kindergarten rooms i'm in pre-k but that's my fault

i also don't do any work and has to have my phone by me at all times

at this point if we go back in March and the numbers are still high then fuck it

i'll just have another mini breakdown in my car while eating taco bell and drowning my sorrows in fraps from Starbucks it's fine all handled and good

oh and she has her daughter accessing school files to call parents too and she's paying her to do so thanks for telling us

i don't think a principal should have her daughter doing that but what do I know I don't do nothing all day

then she wonders why no one comes here to teach willingly

i think we'll be back in march just for parents to complain to us about summer break in three months so that's fine whatever

my attitude about all of this is just fuck it at this point

why do we even have an attendance agent when we've been doing her job all this time? wants to act all high and mighty then cries about how she's having so much problems I DON'T CARE

me: I'm checking with the kindergarten teachers so I don't call anyone twice
my principal: don't rely on the teachers i need you to call them
me: ...

that's their class though???

they know those kids and see them everyday??? they know their parents???

i get more sense from her daughter than I do from her and that makes no sense

i know one thing i'm not gonna kill myself cleaning it's about to be no toys when we go back cause that was insane

but i know i will have even more things to clean and more things to wipe off and do and be nitpicked on so hooray

i might be dying from my two online college classes but at this point i'm like just free me from the parapro life i understand bs comes with teaching too (half of my family, including my dad was a teacher and my mom works in the system as a payroll secretary for the district) but leaving the parapro life will be good for me

do you know how awkward it is to find something to talk about with someone who told me that they ran out of videos to watch on youtube? it is torture

how do you run out of youtube videos? that's like me going "I'm in the My Hero Academia fandom and I can't find any fics on bakudeku at all"

i did ask if there was a specific genre she likes but nope full ass said no more videos for her to watch she ran out of things to watch on youtube

me on the ground: h-how?

i tried suggesting hobbies to her like knitting, baking, she likes hair so I was like styling wigs she told me she thought they were all boring i'm back on the ground h-how?

she doesn't game not even causal games like candy crush so on Friday I'm floundering to find something and i swear it's either the weather (thanks Michigan) or sports (thanks god we have a team literally named the Lions and one named the Tigers)

had my new year evaluation with my AP i love her we spent most of the time joking and bringing each other up cause she's busy a lot and i'm telling her what i'm doing and my classes and everything but it went well! I'm doing good the only thing I have to change is being aggressive when it comes to curriculum and learning XD

I feel like my AP really really wants me there but things have been changing so far so I have to wait and see next week what's going to happen so a lot is in the air the most I know is as long as I can pay for my certificate and be in the system i'll be great

but i do love my AP she's been in my corner since I started working there so I have nothing but great things to say about her. She really reminds me of my teachers in high school who would go "Sunny I know you can do better."
and I was always like "please let me be lazy" lol