[just being sad about stuff.]

Phone is dying. Can't afford a replacement, obviously. My internet is pretty bad, so I've been relying on 4G to access youtube and plurk and tumblr.

Getting the money for meds is going to involve many phone calls. Phone anxiety getting worse without certain meds.

Need to pay overdue electric bill. Haven't paid since March. Bill is over seven hundred dollars.

By putting my foot down re: my relatives sucking off Trump, I've fractured my mother's family. Holidays are cancelled. She didn't deserve that.

Mom still thinks I am a very stupid child who doesn't understand what she needs to get better. She still doesn't understand mental illness at all.

If I work a seasonal retail job to stretch the last thousand of my unemployment, I can't see my dad for the holidays. I can't expose him to anything.

I still have school next semester. I'll need to pay last semester's bill to enroll.

Foster cat Lily seems traumatized by Vivian's presence and refuses to leave the upstairs rooms. I've brought food and water and a litterbox up for her so she doesn't need to come down. I've fucked this foster up so badly.

Overall, I feel very small and very inconsequential.

your mom needs to take some time to look at herself and her actions before she judges you

and kitty will be okay, plenty of cats never take a shine to other animals and they get along fine in the world

I've had one of them and he was a pip right up until the end

also you really can't take responsibility for your family's responses to you putting your foot down

if your family is fracturing and ruining the holidays over ONE member putting their foot down about something it would be very easy for them to abstain from doing, then the fault lines were already there

you've got a lot going on and you're doing the best you can

you're trying your best, honey. that's all anyone can do