Friends, I am feeling especially nostalgic, and not in a great way. I miss my long-time RP partner like crazy, and I miss the wacky, angsty, exciting, joyful adventures we wrote. We were right in the middle of a huge, complex, season-arcing plot with a character who's still very present for me when everything fell off a cliff.

And I don't know how to cope except by reading old chat logs, which are delightful, but...boy, do I miss making new ones. It was going to be such a good story.

/ALL THE HUGS

Can I help?

I wish you could, and I love that you want to. /hug But unless you can telepathically download ten years' worth of character development and plot history, I'm ...I guess a little doubtful.

It was a great plot. There were so many cliffhangers and what-happens-next moments. And SO many revisions. The same event got played out three different ways to find the one that led to the best path.

.... yep I had a LOT of those with that same person and someone else, too

So I know this pain quite well

And I know I can just write whatever I want, right? It'll go whichever way I want it to, but it isn't the same. Having the unexpectedness there, someone else writing with you, so you can experiment and explore different paths... I'm sorry. I'm just really missing it right now. What I wouldn't do for a couple hours of batting that plot ball back and forth.

Oh man, and there's so much missing, too. SO many great stories are just gone, lost on crashed hard drives and dissolved AIM logs.

Sometimes I wonder if I should try to write the rest on my own, but it seems so daunting. There was a lot left. And having that other opinion helping to shape things really matters. And even if I do, it'll never be usable to get back into any games.

Yeeeeeeeeep, this is definitely something I know acutely. For what it's worth, we could do something of our own? I know it isn't the same, but. Given time?

I'm so sorry you went through this. It sucks. And that's not even touching on the pain of a dissolved friendship.

Oh man. You're the sweetest. And you know I would love that, I would love that so much, I've always loved writing with you. You and her both, I could pick your writing out of a crowd any day of the week.

But you have a lot on your plate already, and I really don't want to be needy. I mean, I am needy. I just don't want it to impact anyone negatively. Y'know? RP being fun and recreational is so important, I wouldn't want to think it's only there as a Band-Aid.

Trust me, it's kinda my escapism drug of choice right now.

Ha! I get it! Wow, do I ever get it. /HUG I realized this morning that when I was all boohoo last night, you just jumped right in with how can I help, and I didn't even register that you were making my problem yours when you already had so much you were dealing with and...I'm sorry about that and I'm so grateful.

Aw, hon. The fact that you even thought of that and said something means a lot.

I need a lot of self improvement, but I've been trying to be more aware and more thankful for a really long time. And I know that you feel everyone's feels, AND went through the same thing, so... I didn't mean to add to it. /hug

We had a campfire with some friends tonight and are on our way home now. I'll take a shower and then if you want, or if it'll help, I'll be around to chat and/or RP/plot. I sent you a friend request on Discord.

Ooh that sounds like it was fun. We ended up at Kelly's because she was going to share some kitty pain pills and a quick drop in turned into The Shining and The Exorcist and a lot of hugs

That sounds like exactly what you guys may have needed last night.

Sort of? For me it's complicated.

I just mean the distraction. I'm sorry today is so big and full and.....maelstrom.