Mouth Powers
man it has been like 48 hours since my personal computer keeled over and I am so much lonelier without discord
Mouth Powers
how are you all my friends
Mouth Powers
/squishes face and hands against the glass of my enclosure
Mouth Powers
even if I don't usually use disco to chat with you
Un(t)sundered
I'm good! trying out something that will hopefully get the baby to sleep better
Jay
also lonely. Sad. Tired. Worried.
Jay
/escorts myself out
Mad Larkin
not terrible at the moment, but today has been a bit of a roller coaster
Mouth Powers
Jay /sits on you and hugs
Mad Larkin
helped by my boyfriend sending me to the link for this weird video: https://youtu.be/...
Mouth Powers
I finally cooked a giant batch of potatoes
Mouth Powers
tomorrow if I clean my big pan I will be able to make some real bacon to go wiwth it
Mouth Powers
i'm so tired though and I should do so much more cleaning before I sleep
Mouth Powers
and I meant to do TAGS and MOD STUFF and my brain is just, what
sith-in-law
I'm watching a sports documentary...
Mouth Powers
which sports
sith-in-law
basketball
sith-in-law
it's the espn one about michael jordan
skipthedemon
Today, pretty good, all things considered.
Mouth Powers
otis is being so cute right now
Mouth Powers
he is napping next to me with his belly ALL out
Mouth Powers
lil toe beans
skipthedemon
Awwww.
Mouth Powers
doing that surfer pose kitty thing
bluecanary
ooooh what kinda potato did you make
Mouth Powers
just basic mash but with lots of butter
Jay
god I love mashed potatoes
Jay
with ALL the butter and cream
StupidSexyV⚠der
so much mash
bluecanary
hell fucking Yes
Mouth Powers
I was like "let's put a whole stick of butter in"
Mouth Powers
".......how about another half"
Mouth Powers
"..................how about two"
Jay
I want to come eat your potat
Mouth Powers
I am having like a six hour slow motion panic attack trying to write this jedao post
Mouth Powers
is it character bleed, or just Plague Stress Transference???? no one knows
yallternative
Mouth Powers
yes thank you exactly
Mouth Powers
the ghost of truth
Mouth Powers
my sternum physically hurts
Jay
Ptriciadactyl
oh noooo
Ptriciadactyl
if you need to vent, I'm around
Ptriciadactyl
sorry it's so stressful
Jay
that's awful :/
Mouth Powers
fun face when I was 25 a dentist told me I had the teeth of a stressed out fifty year old
Mouth Powers
*fact
Mouth Powers
they made me one of those clenchy plastic guards to wear at night but my executive function was too fucked up to ever pick it up from their office afterward
bluecanary
dfbdvfd oh no 8(
Mouth Powers
anyway I haven't been to a dentist in the five years since then and thanks to depression have also brushed intermittently
Mouth Powers
Jay
oh no
Ptriciadactyl
ow
Jay
... I know that intermittent brushing problem
Ptriciadactyl
same
Mouth Powers
AND I GUESS I'M NOT GOING TO SEE ONE ANY TIME SOON
Ptriciadactyl
thank you for the reminder to go. brush my teeth.
Mouth Powers
my mom did bully me into accepting her older model vibrating toothbrush so at least I have the Fancy Sound now
Mouth Powers
and sometimes just the "well she gave me TECHNOLOGY, I might as well use it" gets me over the inertia, haha
Mouth Powers
but not always, orz
Mouth Powers
sgsdgsn okay I've done I think as much writing as I'm gonna
Ptriciadactyl
<3
Mouth Powers
should I attempt to yoga (probably deeply frustrating) talk a walk (historically my best destress but maybe less so when I'm SUPPOSED TO STAY INSIDE) or just have ice cream
Ptriciadactyl
put on mask, take walk, avoid other humans more easily because it's late, then reward yourself with ice cream?
yallternative
tiny walk
brisk
professional
Ptriciadactyl
do not pile frustration on top of stress
Ptriciadactyl
do something nice for yourself right now that will feel nice now, as opposed to feeling nice 3 weeks from now after it stops feeling awful
Mouth Powers
the issue is less running into people outside and more "approximately 100+ people use the door latches and keypad buttons into and out of my building" BUT THAT IS MANAGEABLE I HAVE SANITIZER
yallternative
SANITIZE
GLOVES
NOTHING WILL STOP YOU
Mouth Powers
i did yoga for a semester in high school to get out of PE and never stopped hating it
Mouth Powers
I am not flexible and I had to get up early for it and my teacher was very woo-woo and the associations are deep now
Jay
I actually just fold up a piece of paper towel and keep it in my pocket for any crosswalk buttons or anything I need to push (we also are fortunate in having gloves, b/c FIL's medical issues), and then unfold it to push/touch then fold it back into itself again
Jay
b/c we have no sanitizer or alcohol, all sold out, just bleach... not so great for skin, though I use it when I have to
Mouth Powers
I can go OUT just leaning on the bars with my body, and if I am careful and not touch my face on the stairs before rewashing i should be fine. it's more the "I did the FORBIDDEN THING"
Ptriciadactyl
sanitize
Mouth Powers
I have some left over from camping
Ptriciadactyl
yeah, I was lucky that I had hand sanitizer here for when I feed the lizard right before bed and know that if I go wash my hands with soap and water I will wake All The Way Up
Mouth Powers
okay, it;s not too cold, jacket, toodles
Ptriciadactyl
because I definitely couldn't buy any. I thought it would last ages but now that I sanitize all the time to leave my apartment and walk the dog I am just. eyeing my dwindling stash.
Jay
awesome, enjoy the walk
Jay
if you have alcohol you can make your own, but we're out of that now too, and can't buy more
Ptriciadactyl
we have alcohol prep pads and acne face wipes with alcohol.
Ptriciadactyl
I will just start wiping my hands with those.
Jay
yep, that works
Mouth Powers
well on the one hand, super weird flashbacks to all the 2-4am walks I took senior year of college trying to outrun the yawning chasm of my future and failing
Mouth Powers
but the fresh air was very nice
Jay
good for 2, not so much for 1
Mouth Powers
okay, this weekend after I get my own computer back and pay my taxes my next priority is getting back in touch with RL mental health systems
Mouth Powers
even if it's just to cut my current anti-depressant dose so I'm less wired
Jay
good idea
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