he's a rule-obsessed bitch as a coping mechanism to pretend he has some control in the face of constant chaos and uncertainty, and he's a stuck-up bitch as a sour grapes style coping mechanism for everyone disliking him because of the first thing (he didn't want friends anyway!!!)
'if you can't fix this very important thing, ignore it and pour your energy into fixing something else until you are too tired to fret about the first thing
he also has a habit of finding people who are good listeners but not geniuses or especially manipulate and who have absolutely no context whatsoever, and dumping a bunch of his shit on them at once and just seeing how they react
also he's still just a TINY bit mad that Quentin told him to shut up when Jedao said that people were mad at him for going on a murder spree because they held him to higher standards than other inmates because he knows how to be a decent friend
conversely I think some of his rare happy moments are the like three times someone has actually told him he did a good job being very precise about something
when he wakes up and he's warm, and there's light even before he opens his eyes, and he's already tangled up in Fives' arms or smooshed against his chest while Q steals the covers, and he gets to realize all over again that he's not only not alone, not only loved, but that he's married and he gets to keep this
tbh if Q heard that this was in fact true he would transition from yelling at Jedao to yelling at other people for being dumb and then apologize to him for being wrong
the idea of worship strikes him as...fundamentally an incorrect approach to any part of the world, but also one that he can at least intellectually understand as alluring
but if he ever heard that rabbinic quote about how, when someone calls for help, "we must act as if there is no god, and help him yourself" it would hit him right between the eyes with a hammer
but also if he got to know organized earth religion better he'd be very "oh FUCK that's a lot of major conceptual and emotional force multipliers in the hands of people who have absolutely no business controlling the,"
Jedao thinks love - much like the potential divine - is very real and very powerful (and far more valuable) but not always trustworthy, and something to negotiate with carefully
(the only real exceptions to this are Nico and Baby Jedao. his kids make him crazy. his kids are the only place he's surrendered to love as a compulsive driving force, rather than treasuring it as an experience to be grateful for and indulged in but never constrained by)
He did for his first like 3 months and then fell in love with Fives, who, perhaps more to the point, comes pre-packaged with a war to free a few million child soldiers from slavery
...I mean. BBY Vader agrees Dogma you might want to think about that