[mh] [work] [family death -- not real] sort of a mental health twofer this morning

first, I had a dream where my dad called to say that my mom died, and I didn't believe him, and then a bunch of shit made me realize it was a dream, and then I woke up in the dream to my dad calling to say my mom died and then I woke up for real

it was fucking trippy

he hasn't actually called so I'm pretty sure she's okay

part of me thinks she will never actually die, which is probably what the dream was about

second, I've been slacking off horribly at work and RP this past week and I thought I was just being extra lazy but last night I realized it was pretty much just straight up anxiety

soooo I am currently attempting to tackle that by just. pushing through it. which means tags later!!

but actual work now

gosh I read that first part all wrong and my heart dropped on the train

glad all is well (or, you know, the status quo “well”)

i used to have those dreams about my dad a lot