I have a weird problem when it comes to og writing where I end up making the protagonist one of the characters I care about the least. this plurk brought to you by the realization that instead of Hanuman, who is a good boy, I could make the central main characters of the sprawling bullshit politics verse in my head Turali and Saljan, who are the worst

you know, these fuckers

( picrew source )

same feel

why are we like this aj

it doesnt help so many things are like "anyways to the protag is the most morally uncomplicated and somewhat aggravating person here"

in fairness to myself the ppl I tend to relegate to the protag position do still tend to be morally complicated cuz

I don’t make very many morally uncomplicated character,s

Hanuman is kinda exactly that though.

but like Citrine was an angry motherfucker and morally one of the worst people in the cast despite how bad most of the cast also was

but she was also like

a relatively reasonable person in the ways she was bad which I guess is actually the problem. she had the mentality of a normal fucking human being

as opposed to [saljan voice] today I’ve decided to cause problems on purpose

I actually just want to revamp Citrine’s verse now. I don’t remember what I was doing with almost all of it honestly but the characters were really charming and there so many shitty little siblings

I should have just made Citrine the final boss’s little sister

I’ve belatedly realized that my problem is I actually tend to feel like my protagonists should NOT be people who are ultimately trying to do the right thing

when I actually love characters who are ultimately trying to do the right thing

but my protagonists tend to be like “my motivations are I don’t want to deal with the burden of responsibility and I miss my parents“