[cw: death, suicide, abuse] a decade and a year in review? hoo boy

Started off 2010 by ditching my abuser, then managed to force my way through the end of high school. Changed my name and fucked off to college.

Started dating a guy even though I was kind of worried he was too much of a Good Boy to work with me. Lost my first pet that Thanksgiving.

2011 was more college and me deciding midway through the year to move in with my boyfriend (same guy as before, it worked out) and some other friends the next year, which got my boyfriend cut off financially from his family, hooray.

Moved in with boyfriend anyway in 2012 and decided to pick up a second major because I’m an insane person.

2013 (I think???) I reached out with an apology and wound up reconnecting with plushielordlexi and slowly getting back into RP.

2014 was finishing up college and seeking mental health care for the first time in my life.

2015-early 2018 I spent at my second internship, which became my first job. It was an extremely toxic environment and probably one of the lowest points I’ve ever been at. Fought a lot of suicidal urges during those years.

2018 I finally found a new job, which I don’t Love but I Like. Started getting my life and debts in order.

My cousin committed suicide last year and that’s kind of the point I cut off communications with that side of the family. They’re all unhealthy and unwilling to fix it, and I just can’t.

And then we have this year. I’ve been up and down a lot. Trying to reclaim the things I love and that used to make me happy. I at least have my finances together. A lot of family health scares, and readying myself for a lot of very big changes ahead on that front. It gets hard sometimes, but I’m at least surrounded by people who love me and lift me up.

It’s been a decade, that’s for sure. It’s had its highs and lows, but I think at the end of it I’m a much better and much happier person than I was to start out.

I admit I don’t have high hopes for next year. But whatever happens, I think I can make it through. And that’s enough for me.

Thank you to everyone who’s made me smile over the past ten years. You guys are what makes living worth it, and I love you.

You’re amazing, Kay

NO YOU’RE AMAZING you’ve put up with my shit for nearly 20 years!!! ILU FRIEND

you're so amazing and so strong for what you've been through... i hope next year is good to you.💕

that sounds like a decade of alot of stuff and getting through it, Hope the next decade gives you better things, you deserve it

love you, fremb