Waiting for class to start. Listening to folks ten years my junior talking about how absolutely put together they are. Doing field work. Writing their final thesis. Graduation. Buying houses. I'm pretty close to just packing up and driving back home to have a cry.

I don't know what it is, lately, that's making me have anxiety over ambient noise. If it isn't white noise, I can't stand being in the room. I have to try and focus my other senses on smells, sights, touch, pressure.

Like. The brain is just shouting for everyone to shut up. I need silence.

this is a fucking mood and I hate it on both accounts

I packed a thing of earplugs for tests and whatnot a while back and I'm so glad I had the thought

I wonder if the increased meds dosage would help with that, once it kicks in. But it would be nice if something simpler like earplugs would help instead