Mad Larkin
urgh planning
Mad Larkin
so, I've got Thursday and Friday off, and I'm thinking of taking a day trip to Cold Spring, NY on Thursday
Mad Larkin
that does mean I miss the weekly one shot my rpg group does, but it means I have a day of mostly rest between travelling on Thursday and on Saturday to see my boyfriend
Mad Larkin
but it looks like it may rain on Thursday and not Friday in Cold Spring
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but if I go to Cold Spring on Friday, I'll miss Friday Night Magic
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and I won't be able to go to FNM the next Friday because I have to leave work early the next Thursday to get my eyes dilated and examined
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but I'm not sure it's worth it to go to Cold Spring in the rain
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I could just take my umbrella, but if the next day will be ok, shouldn't I go then?
Mad Larkin
I'm probably going up Thursday and I'll take my umbrella
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otherwise I'll miss stuff I don't want to
Mad Larkin
ok, IDK if it's stress or what but I'm really overreacting about this
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because it seems possible that if I don't go to the one shot on Thursday, it won't happen, because only two people have signed up for it and one's the guy running it
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but I really want to go to Cold Spring that day, because I really want the day in between to rest and I really want to go to FNM
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that's not bad, right?
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right?
Un(t)sundered
doesn't sound bad to me
Mad Larkin
thanks
Un(t)sundered
and having a break period after a day trip is absolutely legit
Mad Larkin
it's just that whatever I do, I miss out on something for two weeks and I feel like I'd be letting people down
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which, it's an optional thing and no one's going to hold it against me, but it's there
Un(t)sundered
I mean, that's a possibility? but also like. optional things aren' obligations! so if you want to do a trip somewhere and can afford to do so... go for it!
Un(t)sundered
I don't think your friends will hold that against you
Un(t)sundered
*aren't
Mad Larkin
I'm sure they won't and it's probable that other people will sign up
Mad Larkin
I just have a ton of anxiety about letting people down
Un(t)sundered
I don't think you will be, though I know anxiety brainweasels can be hard to chase off
Mad Larkin
(a part of what touched this off was my mom offhandedly mentioning that if the weather is bad Thursday, I can always go Friday. Which in no way creates an obligation for me to change plans even if the weather is rainy, but my anxiety tells me I should change it, because mom said so)
Un(t)sundered
(I mean, your mom isn't wrong? but also weather reports aren't always right, plus if you won't mind the rain - or potential rain! - than there's no reason to change it)
Mad Larkin
she's not wrong, but if I decide to brave the rain, I'm not letting her down or breaking an agreement, which is what my anxiety is telling me
Mad Larkin
I have this thing where if I say, even casually that I'm going to do something or I should do something, I find it very hard to not do the thing
Mad Larkin
because I have given my word and therefor I must OR ELSE, basically
Un(t)sundered
yeah, exactly re: not letting her down or breaking an agreement
Un(t)sundered
and also 
Mad Larkin
<3 thanks