I'm having so much anxiety about rp because I've been so busy

Just that feeling of needing to drop because I've been having trouble with keeping up through april and may and I know most people are in the same boat but wanting to be as active as I want to be versus what I currently can accomplish is so bothersome

same

Also I know it's not like I'm sitting on a spot someone else wants lmao

sometimes you just have to let some old stuff go and move forward. that's okay.

I also go through those bouts of people probably don't like me which is irrational and pass so I don't usually hold too much stock into those thoughts but they come up!!! I always hope that my threads aren't boring it's weird. Brains are odd?

It's not even a matter of letting stuff go it's just like not being able to get to anything. Like I didn't do what I wanted at all cuz I got to NorCal and had dinner then chatted a bit with my friend then passed out for 12 hours. I'm old and tired!!! I don't have the vigor dumb college me had

I'm okay, I should say. I'm just running errands and I have stuff to do today and I'm probably gonna so swap meet and then go home and sleep and then I have to set up tomorrow for artist alley...

That being said there's WiFi at this con I can access so I can tag off my iPad and that might work out versus trying to tag off my phone that I need for making purchases

i always find that the more anxious i feel because of not being able to get to tags, the more i tend to tie that to "no one wants to rp with me anyway." it's a shitty cycle. but i definitely don't find our threads boring and i've been just as slow, if that helps ease any of your worries i don't mind waiting for tags

i say as i owe you one instead of the other way around

For a slightly different type of reassurance: I'm always a bit relieved when I see RP partners are periodically slower due to IRL happenings, good or bad. It tells me they prob have a slightly healthier relationship to their computers/rp as opposed to being online literally 24/7

and as someone else who's older and has other things going on than just RP, while I love writing to bits, it's reassuring as well just to know I'm not the only one whose speed comes and goes in cycles

In case that's helpful at all to read, haha

^ I agree with everything here. It's healthy and good to have other things going on in your life and there's nothing wrong with having cyclical speed

You guys are super sweet! I really am okay it's just I think I'm really tired from traveling and work and I just want to relax and have fun hahaha

no one is on their game 100% of the time, and it's totally okay to want to relax and have fun too haha. sometimes i have no brain for tags and just need to relax and do nothing and that's fine

I also know I'm gonna be busy the next few months still. I have an enamel pin deadline at the end of the month coinciding with my traveling through NorCal. I have to put another charm order in now by mid June because I'm selling at an exhibitor booth during anime expo which is the largest anime con in the us and ax stresses me out heavily

My friend who's doing a program in Japan is visiting plus my friend I'm staying with rn is also gonna be here after ax...

I have otakon in dc at the end of July and a wedding in France in August. And I want to hermit a little more in between all these dates laugh

Rping is like my relaxing! So it's mostly I will have to figure out how to fit it in a bit better this upcoming few months

I'm really like content though. Like I stopped socializing for awhile so I'm social again and meeting everyone through rp has been great

Please wait for me!!! I love you guys

it is totally okay to hiatus when you need it, too! -a hypocrite who always forgets to hiatus tbh

Hahahaha! I alwayssss forget to hiatus it's true

yeah I should have this last month, I realized in retrospect tbh

Yeah I’ve been stuck in this too bc rl has had some hurdles, but just because you need to tackle rl doesn’t mean you have to feel guilty or drop ;;;;; and whenever you’re feeling good for time and energy and 300% here for adventures with you

I'll be okay. I think last year I was busy but I was out of rp at the time and I wasn't like as social so this year is a real learning experience in being a normal person again hahaha