Luke Skywanker
[mental health] Why can I never talk myself out of feeling depressed when I am forced to take time off because I'm sick? I can feel the argument gearing up about how I'm a bad person for cancelling plans. GDI, brain.
Luke Skywanker
I have deliberately decided to do nothing today, to get better, and I can already feel myself tensing into recrimination over it.
StupidSexyV⚠der
that's rough
Luke Skywanker
I know it's wrong, that this is the right decision, and yet I feel crummy about it. IT's so stupid.
Luke Skywanker
Maybe if I do a few things around the house I'll feel less bad about shirking other activities.
Un(t)sundered
It could be partially because of how busy you usually are?
Un(t)sundered
Like... not doing anything feels “wrong”?
Luke Skywanker
it does
Luke Skywanker
LIke I definitely don't feel that about other people, it's a visceral, "oh shit you're not doing right" which defies logic or reason
Luke Skywanker
It's that deep-seated shame
Luke Skywanker
But anyway, now I feel very whiny! I am sorry.