Bakit kaya lagi ko napapanaginipan yung dati naming bahay kung saan ako lumaki?

Baka may mga unfinished business ka or regrets sa bahay na 'yun.

I dunno, siguro dahil may personal issues ako with my paternal grandparents. They own that house until they sold the property parcel by parcel

do you feel like you weren't given enough time to "experience" this house? or do you have childhood memories in it?

I feel like I have unresolved issues with my grandparents. I feel like they're selfish. They could've passed down that house to my parents but instead they sold it out to pay off their debts from gambling. They left us with nothing but debts. We cared for them but they were selfish. I also learned that they were mean to my mother before I was born

Maybe that's why they visited me in my dreams. But I don't think I'm ready to forgive them

ah, so it's just that you connect the house with your grandparents.
that's sad..

Take your time. Not because someone is dead, you have to bury your feelings too, positive or negative. You're still alive, haunted by those memories kaya I understand na hindi mo sila mapapatawad agad.