just gonna shoot myself now that i've shot myself in the foot. sorry everyone.

shoot neither your foot nor yourself

please don't

hey anon this is Ryn, come talk to me okay? you can PP me at radiantly here or talk to me on discord at Radiantly#6142. There are better options than killing yourself

hey fam this is also becca and the same goes for me, i'm here and available to talk about absolutely anything and everything and/or nothing at all, but please dont consider self harm today ♥

i'm just tired of constantly feeling like i've done something wrong.

i messed up this thing or another thing and now someone's upset about it but it's too late because it's already done and the best i can do is apologize but even that doesn't feel like it's enough and i'm tired of being in this cycle

I know how you feel, anon. I've been where you are and I know it feels like there's no way out of it. But there is, things do get better. Hurting yourself isn't the answer

please consider messaging me or becca and talking through this okay?

You don't have to be alone

i feel like i've talked through it a million times, though. with lots of people. and i know that logically i'm just in a bad brainspace, but i'm tired of finding myself in bad brainspaces.

like why would it be so bad to just. be done.

Because this is not a permanent situation. Dying is very, very permanent

I know it's hard, trust me. Just earlier this year I was in a very similar place as you are. sometimes it just takes a million and seven times to talk through things, or just a little bit of support to get through the worst of it

im not a psychiatrist, i can't give you that level of help, but I can hold your hand so you dont feel like giving up

but what's the point of working so hard to just feel mediocre

mediocre isn't that bad anon. it's something. it's tangible. and you can always move beyond mediocre. and you dont have to achieve something monumental to be good

please contact me through a private means, anon. there's only so much I can do to help if I don't know who you are.

I have been where you are, anon. I know you feel bad, but whatever you did or think you did? It's going to be okay. It feels worse right now than the reality of it is. Please take some time to get yourself in a better headspace. You are worth the effort.

thank you. i'll think about it.

we live in a society that sometimes makes just being a person, who tries their best, feel like not enough

but it is enough for some days

you don't have to succeed at everything, right now, but there's so much value in just being, and nothing shameful in that process

ilu